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Monday, September 18, 2006

A huge punch of thoughts

Hey. I've just watched Farenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore on HBO a couple of minutes ago. It's funny, you see. Nothing had struck my mind on why United States attacked Iraq about two years ago. I've always thought it was the terrorists who provoked the US and some sort of millitary nuclear weapon. After watching three quarter of the 2 hours documentary, many questions just popped into my mind, it's really thought-provoking! Why did the United States attack Iraq? Where were the suspected nuclear weapons? Was there a connection between Bush and the 9/11 incident about five years ago? Is Bush related to the Bin Laden line that's secretly covered up? Did Bush made the dicision to attack Iraq on personal matters? I know, i know. It's been two years, but it's only now that I've thought about it. Now i notice how ignorant i am towards world events. Thousands of soldiers and civilians died for no reason. The death toll is still piling up until today. One simple question - Why? Greed for oil? For power? Or worse - personal matters? Go watch Farenheit 9/11 on HBO, then you'll understand why i'm bringing up this outdated issue that probably was already solved. But i'm still quite clueless. I also just realized that millions of US citizens was dupped by their fellow president, George W. Bush. What a shame. Or probably i don't know the whole thing to comment on it.

Ohh well! Currently i'm trying really really hard to study Geography without dozing off. It's difficult i tell ya. With the temptation of TV and online. Which i gave in to both, obviously! Anyway, i'm just here for a while to post about the documentary i've just watched. I highly recommend it. For those who had no idea, like me, on what exactly happened two years ago which made a huge controversy around the world. I'm so ignorant. Shame on me...

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Friday, September 15, 2006

Slumber of Chaos

~Slumber of Chaos~

I'm sick and i'm tired. And all i want is to sleep peacefully for at least 4 hours a day. But i friggin' mind won't let me. I often doze off into pitts of chaos. My mind refuses to rest peacefully. I just woke up from a nap, which i really had to take coz' my head is starting to heat up. When i woke up, I find myself staring into blank space thinking about nuts (no, not balls). And by the time i snap out of it, 5 minutes has passed by. I think i have mild trauma from nightmares. Because i tend to think about it a lot, and it bothers me at times. I wouldnt say my nightmares revolves around silly things like ghosts, monsters or school incidents.... you know what i mean.

My nightmares often contains deaths, murders, lies and cons, conspiracy.... most of the time - end of the world and how it effects me. Actually it's not exactly the end of the word cause i have no idea how it's like, how do i explain it? Hmm, debris everywhere, dead bodies lying here and there, and i'm the only one left on the planet with a solitary company. There's something for me to do. Like a certain responsibility, which i find ridiculous (in the dream). Whenever i dream of death, sometimes it's someone i do not know, but somehow i feel like i have a connection with that person. And most of the time, i feel like it's trying to connect to me and tell me something. Plus, i have to do something related to it after that! Besides that, dreams of lies, cons and conspiracy keeps loading my mind, which i would wake up in anger and sometimes - hate. Loads of dreams that are trying to tell me something. It's too complicated for me to understand, but i know something is there. Even when i dream of comething CASUAL, it will turn complicating in the end, no matter what!

It really disturbs me mentally! It's so mind boggling! It's not really often, but it's frequent enough to make me so darn sleepy. Sometimes i feel so drained out mentally, all i wanna do is just faint - blank! Why do my nightmares or typical dreams have to turn out so complicated? There's always a twist at every angle. My head hurts so bad right now. Resulted from the dream i just woke up in about 20 minutes ago. That was one of the most disturbing dreams i've had. Not scary, but freaky. Even the word freaky wouldnt describe it fully.

~OK, FREEZE AND REWIND! I sound mentally unstable now. Which i don't think i am coz it only affects me some delusions a while after i wake up. Then of course feeling sleepy throughout the day due to unpeaceful nights, which i think is totally normal right? RIGHT?? Should i seek help? Or am i still a little woozy coz i just woke up not long ago? I'm feeling that i think too much. Arggh!!! It hurts.

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

2 to 1 and I lost

Someone please safe me from 20,000 feet under "misery".
Got back a couple of papers today. News ain't so good! Although my morning's result was rather shocking, but contented, after that disaster by disaster came striking - non stop! Well, I finally got an A for Geography, for my mom, cause she keeps saying that I probably won't get straight A's because of Geography. Well, mom, I have good news for you, Geography is in good hands. Bad news is, you have two other subjects to worry about - BM and KH. I got a bright and shiny B for both.
I still find it hard to swallow, what more digest?! When I got back my BM's paper 1 I was a lil' disapointed but, i admit, was confident enough to at least get the border line of A - 75%. When i got the paper this morning, the marks i got was FAR from reaching that shiny A! Was so devastated, i tell ya! D-E-V-A-S-T-A-T-E-D!!! There was even no hope to beg for pitty marks from teacher. Soon, i found out that i lost marks because i DID NOT READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY!!! What a ridiculous way to lose marks. It made me explode(into shattered little pieces) and - cried. Bah! As for KH? Kinda knew i wouldnt do well. But was really really really hoping that luck will be on my side. Clearly it wasnt. Plus, they had to take the first set of paper, which i got B, instead of the second set, which i got A. SHITTY WEI!!!
So now, i have two B's! And i havent got back my Science paper yet. The teachers are using these results to determine which class to go to next year. I'll end upin the 5A/4A's class, i think (HOPE NOT!!). I am so freaking disapointed at myself. Can practically punch myself in the face!! But i'll leave that to my mom. Thank goodness she'll be home a little late today. Enough time for me to gather up all the strength i have. God knows what would happen. Help me!!!

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Haunted Haunts

~BLOOD SHED CONTINUES IN OCTOBER~

(not suitable for preggers, underage pesky kids and the weak hearted, only suitable for fans who managed to swallow hard during the previous movies. enjoy~)

Friday, September 08, 2006

Strange Foreign

LoL, second post in 2 hours. So, i was blogging just a few minutes ago. Then this guy with the nickname im,PIMPIN started bugging me. It was this guy whom i played pool with from Alaska. I don't know why on earth i gave him my email add the last time. He kept bugging me to have an audio convo with him, which i declined twice. Then he bugged me for a video convo. It was annoying because i was busy updating my blog, which i haven't been doing in a week! So i finally gave in with fingers crossed hoping that he wont flash me like how most guys i met online. Thankfully he didnt, plus his looks are not bad!






















He is one of the worse foreign guys i have ever chatted with. I dont know if he's shy, but i don't think he knows how to communicate. That's why i'm blogging about this. Unlike other guys, he just turns on the webcam and not chat, for no reason. Just staring at his comp waiting for me to type something. So i got fed up and continued blogging. Until.....











This freaky guy took over his place. Then i think they sorta argued over the comp because both of them just disappeared leaving only a chair on web cam with a freaked out girl halfway around the world from him!!!

Anyway, that's it. Currently i'm thinking why am i blogging about this? And about my furniture. *smack forehead* I must be really out of ideas besides cramping exams and trials. Too lazy to delete these posts too. Argh darn...

I HOPE THIS GUY DOES NOT FIND MY BLOG, HE WOULD THINK THAT I'M A NUT CASE!!! maybe i am...

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Relax For Today, Drain Out Tommorow

At last i can rest for today!!! Just did Geography trial about 4 hours ago. I'm feeling that i'm so gonna flunk that paper. It wasnt that difficult, but i didnt study enough. Same thing for science. Was quite easy, but i didnt study and memorize enough. Was so pissed, at myself. Could have done better. *sighs* Anyway, i shall update about what i did this week besides studying. So, my parents FINALLY decided to buy a new tv bench from IKEA. It took them months to choose a certain design and another 3 months to actually purchase it. Waiting for the price to drop they say. Cost about RM1,700. Quite expensive to us, but affordable. So we started fixing it up about a week after the purchase. It was tough i tell ya. I rather study, i know - weird. I got tonnes of splinters and bruises. The materials were so darn heavy! And it was a tough job getting it all fixed. Loads of mess too! Plus, i found a whole lot of junk!
















That's a bunch of little liquor bottles beside a Sweedish wooden doll on a tiny musical piano. I have no idea what's in between em'. I think it's a pair of porceline China shoes - weird i know.













My whole bunch of VCR cassettes. Did not have the heart to dump them. Each cost about RM29.90 each, about 5 years ago. I guess they're just priceless now. My childhood cartoons and movies are all there : Cinderella, Little Mermaid, Alladdin, Land B4 Time, Jumanji, Lion King, Tou Story, Sleeping Beauty... LOTS MORE!!! And they're mostly original. I can't imagine. I must have been a spoilt bratt. Didnt know that my parents were willing to spend so much money on cartoons for MEEE.... Aww, i feel loved! xD

So anyway, after two days of hard work. My daddy and i finally succeeded and now this is how it looks before and after.













Not a proper "before" picture though. This was 1/3 way through. Got the Tv bench set-up. And after...













After all the hard, hard work. I shall no longer insult Malaysia for not having a Home Depot (a store with many wood works and DIY furnitures) branch. I can live without it now. Don't know why i was excited about new furniture. LoL. Probably because i seldom buy new furnitures. So it was quite a big change in the living room. Haha, i'm an "average" person. Ohh, got a problem too.












The amplifier on the left hand side was a little too heavy. As you can see, the wood is a little curved down to the left and right hand side. So it's kinda arched at the Woofer's (is that how u spell it?) compartment. My dad dreaded about this for the whole day! I guess the felt a pinch in his heart........... and his pocket.

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