Frequent Demolition

The Fray - Unsaid

1979 - 2008

''I'm on a fucking journey,'' he said. ''I'm on a walkabout. A lot of people think ambition or success, and they think dollars.... My success is getting underneath that. At the fucking end of the day, that's the only thing you're going to carry with you when you die.''

Tragically, that journey ended on the afternoon of Jan. 22, when the actor was found dead at age 28 in his rented apartment in Manhattan's SoHo neighborhood. Ledger was discovered naked in his bed by a housekeeper and a masseuse who had arrived for a regular appointment, a package of ''prescription-type'' sleeping pills nearby. (In a New York Times interview last November, Ledger had complained of having difficulty sleeping due to stress, to the point where a double dose of Ambien would only buy him an hour of rest.) There were no illegal drugs in the apartment, chief police spokesman Paul J. Browne reported, no evidence of foul play, and no initial indication of suicide. Pending an autopsy, it was unclear at press time what caused his death and whether prescription medications played a role.

-EntertaintmentWeekly.com-

Damn... isn't it such a waste? His career was just shooting off Hollywood's ramp. I'm sure everyone remembers how steaming he was in Brokeback Mountain. Seriously. He made homosexuals bearable to watch xD He made it so convincing. Gotta love his talent and versatility. I most definitely would not forget his performance in Casanova. I was going goo goo gaa gaa over him. I mean, just look at him. How can your heart NOT throb??! He just recently wrapped production as the Joker in the next Batman sequeal alongside Christian Bale. That would be a smash now since it's his last production. My jaw literally dropped to the ground when I saw the breaking news on E! Really... such a waste. Our world is now short of one hot, steaming, and bloody talented star.

As for me, today was as hectic as any other. Was in school till 5pm because of librarian duty and volleyball. I miss having lunch at home! I miss bathing 3 times a day, only get to bathe twice (bloody effing hot weather!) I miss having naps (not that i usually do. but would appreciate some once in a while) I miss having all the time in the world to laze around and most importantly GO OUT AND CATCH A MOVIE. Damn it. I'm feeling several widrawl-symptoms already. Like hogging Astro to watch HBO for hours, but get so aggitated in the end cause' they're all repeats! Effing Astro... *bleep* I practically dug through all my DVDs just to look for something that I have yet to set eyes on. I have another craving..... Carbonara!!! Geez... I'm just crazy over Carbonara. Went over to Delicious last Friday and ate it without beef bacon but with chicken. It was pure mediocre! Darn it... Looks like I have to sneak out this Friday AGAIN just to head over to Marco's (AGAIN) to have a munch of scrumptous, creamy, yummy Carbonara. *tummy grumbles* I don't like rebelling against grounding rules, but I just have to treat myself and give in to temptation once in a while, which I seldom do. So, I owe myself that, just once or so. Teehee!

Don't even ask me about my studies xD

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Blame It On The Weather

Jamestown Story - Dandelion Frog

I'm surrounded by guilt... I went over to 1Utama with some peeps after school today. The crime? I'm supposed to be grounded till end of February. Well, apparently... I hope my mom didn't really mean it. I have tonnes of things to do that requires me out of the house *fingers crossed*

Paintball pics!

Maurice was the terrifying silent killer. He ambushes and shoots you at point blank! Thank God he was on my team xD

Nutty was the Woman of the Match

Teehee... The mark on HanLiang's chest where I shot him xD

After-affects of paintball. Those aren't lovebites. He ain't that lucky...

What we did on Monday
*Warning. Not for the weak-hearted *coughs coughs*

Reminds me of an Uncle Grober... in a funny way...

ChienLung was the only one who held his frog with his bare hands without hesitation.

Cute ain't it? Ugly but adorable that is... Poor thing. Soon to be tortured and dead!

"As I lay with my hands wide apart, awaiting the moment to be cut open..."

First, you skin the frog to reveals its six packs!

Seriously... The frog has six packs. No kidding. See it for yourself. Check out the blood vessels on the skin.

Carefully draw an incision from the chest all the way down to the belly.

Oh, no. Don't mind me. Just mutilate me organs while I'm "peacefully" asleep.

I think our poor little frog bled to death. Its heart was beating so faintly. I guess its because Pn.Yip poured chloroform directly onto it. At least it was close to dead already.

Oh yeah sure... Feel free to take out one of my vital organs (fyi : liver). Anyone seeking for a donor?

Check out its silvery spine

My group of girls. We did a pretty good job since none of us actually screamed. Although I did let out a light but cowardly scream when I carried our frog and dumped it into the bucket of chloroform. The frog was fat, huge, slippery and struggling for its life, mind you =D

I would be lying if I said I did not enjoy the whole disection. But I did feel sick in the stomach to open the frog up and mutilate its organs just to study em. The really sick part was that the frog was actually asleep, not exactly dead. We needed to see its hearbeat. There have been cases where a frog actually woke up in the middle of the disection. I can't imagine! As you can see that I'm strongly against animal cruelty. I feel like a hypocrite cause I wouldn't mind disecting another one =D It's as close to performing a "surgery" as I can get at the time being xD

Oh, look what I stumbled onto, Bryan...

Do you know what's annoying?

Saw this on Phui Loo's blog and it totally reminded me of Bryan and his infuriating question.

That's all for today. Shall scurry off to finish reading "Memoirs of a Geisha" before heading off for my beauty sleep. I still can't make up my mind whether to attend scouts troop meeting tomorrow. It's at 7 friggin a.m. on a Saturday... *groans* Toodles~

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The Missing Piece

Schuyler Fisk - Songs That Say Goodbye

Bryan left for Australia yesterday...

Missing him terribly already...

Now a piece is missing from this heart of mine...

Damn it, Bryan! Why did you have to go?!

I'm missing a shoulder to lean on...

Missing someone who could ask me to shut up when I've crossed the line...

Missing the times when we could roll our eyes at once on the count to three...
Missing someone who could annoy the shit out of me by just poking around...

Missing all the stupid facts from Mr-Know-It-All...

Missing someone who's super lame and super defensive...

Missing someone who could tell me what's right or wrong no matter how simple my mistakes are...

Gone are the times when we can scream at each other for no reason...

Gone are the times when we can team up against the gigly girls...

Gone are the times when we can debate for hours and still not agree on something...

Gone are the times when we can bring up all our weaknesses and just tease and laugh about it...

Gone are the times when we can be so frank and honest to each other...

Watching him leave through the depature gate yesterday was one of the hardest thing I had to do. There was so much that I wanted to say. But the minute I tried to put the words together, they seem to clump up to my throat. I tried so hard to hold back my tears.

I know the fact that he's only leaving to Melbourne... But without him around, things are never gonna be the same again. The minute he got up to the departure gate, my eyes just welled up uncontrollably. He's not gone forever but he's gone for good. As much as I didn't want him to leave, I know it's for his own good. He'll be much better off studying in Melbourne. This is the time when I'm in denial and he would hit me in the head with facts that say "everything's gonna be alright".

I'm gonna miss you terribly. In fact I'm missing you already and I bet my fortune that you know that, Bryan... Hope to hear from you soon...

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Dash of Accentricity

Santana feat Chad Kroeger - Into The Night

Gosh, I woke up with a stinging pain in my right arm this morning. It was almost unbearable. I was groaning in pain throughout the morning. Especially my back. But what came with those groans were laughters in my head thinking "So, this is the after affect of Paintball!!". Went for paintball with Bryan, Vinser, ZhuoLi, ChienLung, JunHsien, HanLiang, Dasara, Grace with her brother, Ben, Nutty, Sarah, Jennifer and her cousin Maurice. So there were all 14 of us. MeiShan was supposed to join us but pulled out last minute because of all her tuitions, have a break sometimes, Shan, you're gonna blow your own brains out. We were all like "darn! no target to shoot at since meishan is not joining us" Seriously, we were all planning to get her. Probably that's why she didn't wanna go xD

So anyway, we were supposed to meet at the Taman Bahagia station at 2.30pm. Being typical Malaysians, most of the guys came at 2.45p.m. Poor us. We had to take the public transport and then walk ALL THE WAY THERE. What are we to do?! None of us can drive... YET! It's an Academy called Paintball Starz. I think. Heh. I didn't even bother to know the name of the place xD We stopped at Taman Jaya station thinking that it's near Amcorp Mall. Well, according to the silly map, it was. So, we walked around and around and around but could not find no darn paintball field. Dasara's bad bad bad sense of direction took us everywhere but ended up nowhere. Then Sarah called and gave the weirdest directions...

Sarah : Okay. Walk away from Amcorp Mall. Keep to your right (or was it left??) Walk all the way straight.

Me : There are so many angles of "straight" from where I'm standing!!

Sarah : Where are you?

Me : Leaving A&W area.

Sarah : Ya'll still at A&W?! Backside la you! Okay, so you go straight....

And she kept going on and on with her "go straight" directions. And Bryan was freaking annoying, I could hear him in the background complaining. Bryan, you're the pain! =p I remembered Sarah said the place was located in between PJ Hilton and Armada hotel. So we walked towards PJ Hilton. After walking for more than 15 minutes, then I realised that PJ Hilton and Armada were "miles" apart. The place was no where to be seen. And by the pace we were going, I had a feeling that the plan wouldn't work out after all. Thankfully someone was "smart" enough to suggest us to stop by and ask for directions. Hey, I was the only girl around 5 other guys. It wouldn't appear to be a surprise that we didn't stop to ask for directions. Was surrounded by bloody male-ego! Long story short, we found the place immediately after that. It was located so far in. Near the Tun Hussein Onn Eye Hospital and St. Paul Church. A long 30 minutes walk. It was frigging scary okay?? The guys crossed the road like nobody's business. It scared the shit outa me! It felt like I was gonna be roadkill in a matter of seconds.

The paintball game was the bomb!!! We played 4 games actually. About 50 pellets each. I got shot in the back by Bryan, which hurts right now. Then I got shot on my finger and my hip by Sarah. Ironically, that happened when I ambushed her. Plan failed xD I managed to shoot Nutty, HanLiang and Grace. Teehee! Basically everyone managed to shoot someone, and I think everyone went home with bruises! It was bloody painful. Especially being shot at a 2 feet range. It was really an experience for all of us. I expected it to finish really fast, but thankfully we played for almost 2 hours. Probably because some of us wasted time hiding behind the shield waiting for the opponents to run out of ammo. I'm one of them xD Felt cowardish... Will post pictures after I get em from Nutty.

After that we went to A&W for dinner. Yuck. Not gonna dine there for some time now... Zhuo Li, Vinser and JunHsien were so reluctant to go home. So was I. So we hung around KJ till 7.30pm. Then decided to go over to Marco's AGAIN (Vinser's idea).

They were still craving to eat Pizza and Pasta even after dining at A&W. Pigs...

I have no idea why JunHsien was so shy towards the waitress.

We were muka tembok enough to ASK for a free Jumbo Margherita from our friend, Siti. It finished in a blink of an eye.

Jun's (right) and my (left) poor fingers. Direct hit! Bloody painful...

We have a really really weird President. Jun never fails to act retarded whenever he has a chance to xD An ideal friend to go to whenever you feel like emo-ing. He'll just turn on "It Ends Tonight"

Zhuo Li invading my phone with this serious look on his face. I wonder what he was doing... Never got to find out!

Vinser was eating like a hungry cayote! He's now a regular customer of Marco's Pizza. Even I don't visit Marco's that often after I quit the job.

After that the guys still hadn't had enough! They decided to play basketball at 8.30pm. I was already washed up but they were still up and running like annoying Energizer Bunnies. So, we went over to the park nearby my house. Played basketball and volleyball till 9.30pm. Zhuo Li once again failed to teach me how to SET. I can't seem to grasp the concept. FINALLY they decided to go home. I was pretty darn tired. Fell asleep on the couch watching E!

Imagine, I had to spent my entire day till night with these 3 maniacs. But it was fun lah. Bloody Karma Sutra jokes ya'll crack up. I seriously thought ya'll bought it xD Thanks guys, at least I didn't feel so emo after that xD

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Just A Little Bit Of Faith

Tristan Prettyman - When It Rains

*breathes in deeply* Things have not been a bed of roses lately. Been stressed up over so many things. School affairs are being piled up. I have 3 trips to plan for clubs. Both overnight trips. And my Leo Club teacher advisor (needless to name who) isn't giving me a chance to get a breather. She just can't lay off my ass. Then, I got voted into the Hias Rumah Dept for Rumah Biru. I know, what the bleep! Of all the people, sure... vote for the most un-artistic! I tried to pull out, but somehow the teacher said it doesn't matter, as long as I can lead the rest. I was like okaayyy... I don't think leading would do much of a difference to win for creative-ness. It's gonna be one heck of a year. Then, there's volleyball. Have to train super hard because it's sad to say that we're not really good. So, if things go on low, we're so gonna be trashed. Especially by Sri Kembangan because they're so awesome at it. Killer spike! *crosses fingers*


Facing some dillemas at home. My parents seem to tell me a lot of stuff. They would ask for my opinion whenever they can. Somehow they assume I'm an adult to take it all in. I do try my best to face it like how a grown up would, but I can't. Sometimes I really do wish that they would keep it from me. I know it sounds self-centred and all, but there's only so much that I can take. Gawd, I miss the times when all I have to do is Eat Sleep and Shit. Studying wasn't even a big of a deal at that time. I guess I'm just having a crisis. You know, like those middle-age crisis. Except mine's a huge silly one which shows how bleeping scared I am to step into adulthood.


I've planned a paintball activity tomorrow. Specially for Bryan. Two people just pulled out last minute. So, it might be called off. I hope it'll work out. It'll be an opportunity for me to lash out all the emotions and heavy load pounding on my chest right now. I really thank God for friends who can really make me laugh every single day...

You can see how creepy Bryan looks. Surprisingly Vinser was camera shy that day. You're such a pain at times, d'ya know that Bryan?

I have an awful lot to say about a lot of things but I'm afraid if I do, I might not be able to stop. Where are you when I need your shoulder to lean on?

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Uncountable Laughters

Chantal Kreviazuk - What If It All Means Something

Omg. I just realised that I have not blogged about our Langkawi trip in October 21st. I was going through all the pictures and I can't wipe this huge smile off my face. Damn I miss that trip so much. I know this is pretty darn late but OH WELL... Can't really blame me, I was the last to get my hands on these pics!

The minute we finished our final exam in 2007 (no, wait... we planned quite a long time before that xD), we decided to organise a trip to wherever that's possible. Actually thought of going to Bali, but nooo... it requires a passport and my passport expired 6 yrs ago plus it was too far away. So, we settled for Langkawi instead.

My poor dad had to "babysit" all 7 of us : Bryan, HanHwa, Vinser, HanLiang, Grace, MeiShan and I. It must have been a once in a lifetime experience for my dad alone xD

They just can't get enough of each other...

This is a super weird picture of annoying Bryan. *flicks you*

I definitely remember asking all of them to travel light. By all means, Grace turned up with a huge roller-luggage. I, however, brought a single bagpack =D

Weight of Grace's luggage after the trip... It was 8 kg when she boarded the plane if I'm not mistaken.

Poor thing :(( we had to settle for Maggie Mee for lunch on the first day. Travelling on a budget xD plus, the nearest restaurant was 3km away!

Spent the whole day at the beach. I'm not gonna post of those jumping pictures if you guys are wondering. Ya'll already made enough fun and jokes about it! Mean ol Grace HAD to post em on her blog for the whole world to see =((

We also hung out at the pool. Acted like bunch of kids fighting for floaties.

One of the moments that makes you go =.=" : Grace and MeiShan dancing on the beach.

Hahaha... Love this pic. Was a candid shot of our reaction when we saw the volleyball. "BALL!!"





We tried to bring the inner-woman out of Bryan. You can see how he enjoyed it by the look on his face.

The part that bugged me the most was the number of friggin times the sand went into my eye. It could have been a nice picture =( MeiShan forever being camera-ready.

We shared uncountable stories that we wouldn't tell anyone. Well, at least I hope so...

The next day we took the cable car up and crossed the I-forgot-what-it's-called bridge. Someone came up with this LAME idea of clapping the clouds. Grace said the mist smelled like cotton candy. Truly, it did!!







Introducing super-macho HanHwa! Ladies, he's up for grabs xD




Super-macho HanHwa when he's not on his heroic duty.

Langkawi : The place where you can get ridiculously cheap imported chocolates! And cheap boozes too! Got my Jack Daniels for RM50 xD I lovelovelove Kinder Bueno!

We were supposed to pout in the picture. As you can see I failed miserably!

Last picture of the day. Gosh, how time flew by and everything ended so friggin fast.

Phew! There are lots of pictures left but blogspot takes forever to upload the picture and I'm getting super impatient. Plus, I'm super super super darn hungry!!! Looks like I've gotta have a light supper before I sleep this time. Toodles ~

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