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Friday, December 29, 2006

Does 12 Days of Christmas Exist?

So, it's currenltly the 5th day of Christmas eh? That's if anyone believes in 12 days of Christmas, cause I sure do. The tree is still up and glowing. I didn't really take notice of the tree until last night. It was Thursday, so there isn't much to watch after Amazing Race Asia, Hope&Faith, According To Jim and Two and A Half Men. Yeap, that was all! So, was sitting on the couch, dazed at the tree. Then, I was like "WOW", the tree looks pretty. *slaps my forehead* What on earth am I talking about...

Anyway, I got my results back yesterday. I can't describe how 'sick' I felt the night before yesterday's. Was feeling so sick in my stomach. Almost every five minutes, I felt like throwing up. Didn't even laugh at the silly stunts of Tom&Jerry (don't ask!). I felt a sudden dreadful feeling. It's like I'm gonna be totally disappointed of my results the next day. I couldn't sleep till 3am. The next morning I had no appetite whatsoever to eat, so I just ate two half-boiled egg and felt like throwing up all over again. I even found it hard to breathe when I was about 400 metres away from my school. Results were supposed to be released at 10am. But it was delayed, THANK GOODNESS! It gave me time to calm down and to keep my nerves steady, or I thought so. Ended up, went at 12pm, my nerves started to freeze up! I couldn't feel my steps, seriously! I felt so giddy that I wasn't paying any attention to the people around me until I saw a few familiar faces then I started to calm down. That's when I bumped into my primary school teacher *gulp*, Pn Nurhaizan. She was there as an invigilator for the Form 6's examinations. Immediately after, I began shaking nervously. I felt my face going completely red! By the time I got to the canteen I saw tonnes of students already holding a piece of paper. And quite a number of them were crying. The worse part is, I had to take the results from our class teacher, Pn Grace, whom I dislike. I couldn't remember what really happened when I took my results, but I remember sobbing in my dad's arm right after. It was a relieved cry. Thank the Lord Jesus!!! So, I'm thankful for my results, come what may.

And for those who are not satisfied with their results, I know I can't say anything that can really make you feel better. I just want ya'll to know that I understand completely how you feel and you're definitely going to get through it. You have my support!

And did I mention how effing HOT it is, today??? It's like the sun rays are about to peel my skin of my body. The sun was and still IS so freaking scorching!!! A cold bath doesn't help either. At this matter of time, I'm wishing that I live in Antartica!!!

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

The Sleigh's Leaving The Roof

Merry Christmas Ya'll!!! Did Santa fill your sock with plenty of hohoho's this year?? GOSH! I've gotta stop saying that! I've been saying that non-stop for the past 2 days, it's starting to annoy me... Anyway, Christmas wasn't as good as I expected this year. It was quite meaningless because we didn't go to church. So christmas wasn't exactly Christmas with the capital "C". We celebrated at my aunt's house in USJ as usual. I wasn't really enjoying myself because there wasn't anyone suitable to talk to. My cousin had her boyfriend over, so I didn't wanna "lamp-post" between them. Plus, she was busy watching over her new Shi-tzu puppy named Hazel, who's so so so cute! Damn, which reminds me, I forgot to take a picture! Anyway, my uncle's white friend and his wife didn't come this year. I had fun talking to them last year, they were so funny and entertaining till' I sat with them and a bunch of adults instead of my cousins. So, that was missing. My other cousin and his wife wasn't invited this year. I click easily with that cousin because of my interest in football, he's another football fanatic. The funny part is, they weren't invited because my aunt thinks that they always turn her invitation down. Erm, the fact is, she seldom invites them. Or maybe there's another personal reason.

Anywaaaay, so I didn't talk much, which was so agonizing because I NEEDED to talk. Instead, I drank lots of cheap red wine at a corner watching my parents barbeque-ing which was a funny sight because we don't have a barbeque pit. And then my political uncle came by talking about politics and flooding issues which I didn't quite mind because I desperately needed to talk to someone. Actually, there were a few 'second' cousins around. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't being anti-social or anything like that, I love socializing. BUT the things that they talk about and the topics they find funny and even the jokes they crack up leaves me sitting there stunned with crickets in my head, you know that *twit twit*. Anyway, I had a couple of refills throughout the night. I didn't even care about the fact that the wine doesn't taste good, I just needed some alcohol that night. So, time ticked by... Hour by hour... I finally gave in and joined crowd. Had a couple of laughs and a couple of stunned silence. Then the KIDS came down to open their presents when it's 2 hours before the clock struck 12. Kids were cheering in excitment, snatching each other's toys and running around the house, SCARING Hazel (the dog) and ME!!! So, I HAD to grab another refill of wine. Then my cousin noticed that it was no joke that I really WANTED to drink. People started asking me if I was still sane and conscious, especially my dad, which eventually annoyed me. I don't remember getting drunk, but I do remember feeling giddy and was having a hard time fumbling for the car's door handle. And I sure remember my dad saying I was flushed and was testing me like a traffic police.

In the end we went home at 12, earlier every year. We opened our presents at home. Got some pretty stuff this year. Mostly bags. At least I didn't get anything childish like a Barbie doll pencil case last year, which made me laugh my freaking ass off all the way to bed. The best part, my parents gave me a Patrick plushie that I've been trying to buy for months!!! Everytime I wanted to stop by a shop to actually purchase it, they rush me off, saying it's silly for me to buy a "soft toy". Thankfully, they ended up buying it for me. Love it! I actually GAVE my brother all my Poke'mon cards, which were in the cupboard collecting dust. Well, not exactly all... I took out the hollow cards xD What? My brother isn't exactly a 'responsible' boy, at least not yet. As for my youngest brother, that poor thing... He's presents were a bunch of stationaries like pencil cases, crayons, colouring book... Not a single toy for him. While his older brother received a Bionicle. Justin, my youngest brother, was like "I don't like this... I want this... and that... and that..." looking all cute and emo at the toys. Poor thing!! I mean, he's only 4 years old. They should be getting him toys and not school stuff. Oh well, thankfully my parents bought him a bunch of HotWheels which made him hysterically happy. LoL. So, all is good. Could have been BETTER though. Well, next year then. We'll try and host our own party with lots and lots and LOTS of WINE!!! I guess tomorrow I'll write about what we did on Christmas day itself. Which also reminds me that PMR results are two days away. *Gulps*

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Sunday, December 24, 2006

I Want A Glowing Red Nose

...Omgz Omgz Omgz... Can you believe it? It's Chrismas Eve! Which means it's less than 12hours till Christmas, and less than 36 hours till Boxing Day! I hearing Jingles and HoHoHo's already. I'm currently at home, doing nothing besides watching TV and franctically waiting till it's 12 o' clock, which is 10 hours awaaay! As each hour passes by, I'm feeling soooo sleepy. Even though I woke up at 12pm today, mind you, I seldom wake up that late. Was watching football, AGAIN, last night. I don't friggin know why, but I've been watching too much football these days. Until every morning I would rush for the newspaper just to glance at the sport section. I'm telling ya, watching football is Bad Bad Bad for health. Here's why :

1. Late nights = Eye bags and OverFlooding coffee consumption (which I'm having a cup right now)
2. CouchPotatoNess = Flatter ass and over weightness (thankfully I don't fancy chips that much)
3. Bright Tv in the dark = My power has gone up which I haven't got new glasses for and school's re-opening really soon!
4. Stress & Suspense = I don't think my heart can take it any longer! Seriously, everytime the opponent approaches the goal, my heart just stops and I find myself holding my breath. I might die of a stroke before I turn 60. AND, the stress causes my stomach to secrete more acid. Which leads to...
5. Night hunger = Empty stomach urges me to have supper which I've been avoiding for the past two months (Go Me!) and the high acidity in PH level in my Stomach doesn't help either. I might have stomach ulcer and can never consume spicy food in peace ever again, which WILL be a HUGE nightmare for I can't survive without Hott&Spicy-ness once in a while.
6. Overfilled tank - You know what they say, when you gotta go ~ YOU GOTTA GO! But that doesn't apply when every minute someone tries to score and break seems like an hour away when there's only 10 minutes to go. So it's like being glued onto the couch while you hear the toilet calling your name...
7. The last and most deadly ~ Mental illness = I usually watch football alone at night because my mom thinks watching football is like waiting for Santa to fill my sock, a complete waste of time, and the matches I watch doesn't suit my Dad because we happen to support the opposites. Plus, my bro is so annoying after the clock strikes 12. So, I'm alone on the couch, in the dark, volume down, hearing crickets, no food, no water and bathroom for 45 minutes, only a 10 minutes break... I LITERALLY TALKED TO MYSELF. I kept on telling myself to take deep breaths when the score was 2-2 at the 92nd minute last night. So, yes, I was practically going mad.

Alright, rewind and FREEZE! I AM WATCHING TOO MUCH FOOTBALL! I really need to stop. The thing is, Chelsea's only two points behind ManUnited, and the pressure of people dissing Chelsea just makes me really anxious. Plus, I can't help feeling proud of Chelsea's fighting spirit. They never ever give up until the very last minute. Take last night's match for instance. I know it may be Chelsea playing weak yesterday because Wigan seemed so good, but at least Chelsea did not fret. Oh gawd... I HAVE to stop talking about football. It's supposed to be a Guy thing. I'm starting to feel the creeps x.x

So, I can't wait for Christmas (changing the subject)!! I wondering what kinda presents I'm gonna receive this year! Plus, I miss going to church during Christmas. I used to exchange presents with fellow church-mates and carolling. Now, I don't have a church to go to. Can't find a suitable one, but I think that's such a silly excuse! Haven't been attending church for 2 years now. And I fear that if I don't continue to attend, I may fall out. That's my greatest fear. I'm really hoping that we'll find a suitable church soon, because everytime Christmas or Easter or even Sundays come up, the first feeling I get is guilt guilt guilt. Oh, God. Please forgive this sinner. I shall be running back home soon enough, I promise!!!

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Friday, December 22, 2006

We're Like Cars On The Cable

*Yawns loudly* I'm so friggin' sleepy. Slept at four and woke up at eight. Feeling tortured, coffee doesn't work the same way anymore! Anyway, woke up early to help my Grandma with her "Guotong" task. I helped her make 'tong yueen'. Erm, it's like a chinese delicacy. They use dough, shape it into tiny balls and boil em in sweet ginger water. Something like that... xD Now my arms and wrists are sore. I made about total a hundred BALLS in white, red and green. It was really pretty. But I have to say, the colours make em look scary and unsafe to eat but they're perfectly safe. Chinese delicacies are so so weird! I don't even know what are these 'tong yueens' for. I just help make and eat em. I used to love em. But now I guess I've grown out of it and find it rather hard to swallow. It's not very tasty actually. Because I hate hate hate GINGER! I'm willing to eat garlic, onions, or any related but GINGER is a sure NO NO to me! My hands are so smooth and soft now. Thanks to the flour!

Anyway, I'm currently online waiting for time to pass. I've spent the whole afternoon downloading songs by artists whom I've never heard of while doing some chores in between. I'm waiting "patiently" for Grey's Anatomy to finish downloading. Says here, it takes another three hours at the speed of 21kb/sec. Oh gawd!!! So, it's true what they say : It Takes Time For Pleasure. Darn, I love love love Grey's Anatomy. It seriously takes my mind off everything! Well, sort of. It's basically a show about surgeons. And the naration revolves around a "dark and twisty" and "scary and damage" intern, Meredith Grey. I've gotta say, her fellow interns are so fun to watch! This show has bits of drama, comedy and suspense. All in one, and it doesn't look as ridiculous as Scrubs. PLUS, there's a lot of SEX! Well, of course they're clean and I mean CLEAN. Which makes it funny and entertaining. There's also really great sacarsm by Dr. Christina Yang! I really enjoy the jokes and sillyness they crack up. Then there's the life-reflecting feature. Every surgeon has a story. No matter how dark or bright it is, they have a story. Every patient has a story. No matter how painful or blissful it is, they have a story. At the end of the day, everyone in the hospital are only human and no better or worse than any other fools who ever breathe. I cried a lot watching this show. Cried even more than watching Oprah xD So, you see how touching it can be? Anyway, I really recommend this show to anyone. But it's only suitable if you are matured and open-minded. If not, you'll probably be clueless about what the heck they're all talking about. For instance, I never knew what Poison Oak is, until now *grins*

Anyway, you get the point. Gahh, I have to walk over to the nanny's house to pick up my little annoying brother now. The worst part is, I have to babbysit him for at least two hours. Been doing this for the past two months, I think the shade of my hair is lighter than usual. Gawd, I'll have PURE WHITE hair sooner than I expected!!!

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Wednesday, December 20, 2006

Jingle Bells and Colourful Wrappers are finally here!

I'm baaaacckk! No, I did not die and resurrect from the dead, so don't ask me how Princess Diana and Elvis are getting along . No, I did not travel the world in 2 weeks. And NO, I did not GET to visit Europe =((. I just overused limited shitt-ass streamyx and had to tie myself up from the net for a while before the bill hangs from the ceiling and reaches the floor. It feels like swimming 20,000 feet from under the sea up for air!!! The worst part is, streamyx is effing slow!!! It took about 5 minutes for blogger to start. Now that I'm back, blogspot simply hates me ='(( So, I'm still thinkin how I survived those 2 weeks... I haven't been going out with friends since November. Everytime something comes up I keep turning them down (NOT ON PURPOSE, CROSS MY HEART), my silly excuse will be No Transport (because my parents are busy working, poor me!) or I have to settle my list before 2007, which is a huge current problem! I've been stuck at home during weekdays, only went out during the weekends with my parents. Hmm... seriously! HOW DID I SURVIVE THAT???

Anyway, can you believe it? Holidays are going to end in 2 weeks time and I've still got a long list of things to do!!! The only good part is Christmas is coming!!! The tree is up with blue and silver decorations this year. Didn't manage to find turtle doves, which I was frantically looking for!! Already went for pressie shopping the day before and wrapped everything today. So excited! Once again, I feel like a kid waiting for Christmas. I can hear the Jingle Bells ringing in my head. So, I've got the tree, the presents and the spirit (most importantly). So now, all I need is a bag full of decorations, a Mrs. Santa suit, a turkey... No wait, that's Thanksgiving, boxes of wine, Christmas Carols, greeting cards (Oh snap! I forgot to buy those) and a new Christmas sock in case Santa decides to visit Naughty Stephay this year =D Argh, I'm not ready for Christmas yet! Still got quite a number of things to get ready. I thought of celebrating somewhere different this year but NO, I have to celebrate at my Aunt's house (full of pesky kids and NO WINE) for probably the 9th or 10th year in a row. I wanna celebrate somewhere with non-stop drinking xD and people dressed in Christmas outfits. Won't that be more exciting??? Gah, I'll probably need to wait till I'm 18 then I'll fleeeeee! I really hope Christmas won't be depressing this year, my spirit is so UP, I'll be really devastated if it doesnt turn out well!!! Anyway, I gotta go off now, have to bathe and have a few things done before going out for dinner with Bitchy SueVern who decided to leave us and go for private schoool =( Ciaozzz!!

Highlights of the week : Chelsea's hott match against Everton and ManchesterUnited's loss to Westham. HAH, suck your own words, Ronaldo, Chelsea's only two points behind cha. Here We Come!!!!

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Temporarily "Found"

I've just found out that LOST will not be airing on ABC in AMERICA till February 7th. So, we can't download the episodes from mininova.com and bit-torrent till AFTER Chinese New YEAR. Shitty!!! This proves that the writers and producers have no darn idea where to direct the story-line!!! Dear Lost fans, Don't be surprise if all of the sudden they decide to STOP production due to "Tight Budget" or "Banned Due to Sensitive Issues". Now I shall rot with Grey's Anatomy and One Tree Hill, series with less headache and more laughter. Toodles~

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Thursday, November 16, 2006

Inspirational White Sheets

So... Just came home from 1Utama (again). Went with my dad. To me it was kinda funny cause he was so quiet and I felt that he was pretty annoyed because I was chit-chatting non-stop about stuff xD Actually, I went there specially to spent my birthday vouchers I got from my mom 4 months ago. Will expire soon. Thank God I remembered. If not, a hundred bucks just *poof!* Anyway, went to MPH. I felt like a lost sheep there. It took me about 15 minutes to find the Best-Selling section and when I got there, I noticed it was the FICTION Best-Selling section. I'm not into fiction, well... not really. Then I bumped into a section FULL of Stephen King's Best-Selling, #1 New-York Times Best-Seller, Best this, Best that... I could see that he's a REALLY good author. All thriller though. Storyline at the back of the books sound interesting but the price of his books are really expensive. Plus, I'm not sure if I'm the Stephen King material. By the way, if you're one of Stephen King's fans, did you know that he's writing love stories now? As in, romance novel. Weird huh?!

Anyway, I bought four novels at one shot for the first time! I don't usually buy books, I borrow. Don't get me wrong. It's not that I'm stingy at buying books. It's because' I'm very very bad at judging a book by it's cover or even the synopsis behind! So, I borrow from friends who gave thumbs approval =D. As for today, all the books that I bought today were recommendations. I'm a little shy of borrowing now. Although I do have a few books in mind to borrow from a friend xD! I bought PS, I Love You by Cecilia Ahern, Can You Keep a Secret by Sophie Kinsella, Message In A Bottle by Nicholas Sparks and To kill a Mockingbird by Harper Lee.

By the way, I love love love Nicholas Sparks' novels. He makes me cry/weep/sob *sniffes* Especially A Walk To Remember and The Notebook. Actually, I watched The Notebook movie. Starring actress Rachel McAdams from Mean Girls. It was so sweeeeeeeeet. Was looking for The Notebook novel high and low but when I asked, they said they were out of stock! Probably have to wait for a month or two. *SOBS*

Oh, and guess where did I hear about To Kill A Mockingbird novel? I first heard it from Everybody Loves Raymond! So, I then did a few research here and there and found out it won a Pulitzer Prize!!! For your info, The Pulitzer Prize is an American award regarded as the highest national honor in print journalism, literary achievements, and musical compositions. It's really an honourable prize. Truly a great achivement! I heard it's basically about a child growing up in a tough neighbourhood. It's also about prejudice and injustice towards black people... something like that. I like this kind of novels. About society and true experiences. Like the movie titled Schindler's List by Steven Speilberg about holocaust. Still looking for the DVD and Novel. Okay... now I'm over-blabbering. Gah...

Oh, which reminds me... I watched this movie titled Edison recently. Told you I'm a movie-manic!!! Thanks to HBO, Cinemax, StarMovies and ignorant Malaysia towards piracy (excuuuuse me, Pak Lah!). Anyway, about the movie... It stars Morgan Freeman, Dylan McDermott (acted with Ashwarya Rai in Mistress of Spices), Kevin Spacey, LL Cool J (singer - Control Yourself ft JLo) and the oh-so-popular Justin Timberlake. Yeap, Sexy Back "hottie" acts! Remember he disappeared for a while? He started a new career, ACTING. And he's pretty good at it. The movie's about corrupted FRAT. Police officers... Justin's character is Josh, a journalist, whom plans to write about FRAT's corruption in goals of getting a Pulitzer Prize. Nice show! Catch it on Astro. It's good.




Well... I shall stop here for today. I have lotssss to write about. All the crappy ideas that popped into my mind while I was chewing crunchy chips on the couch.... COUCH POTATO! Till then... ciao!

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Sunday, November 12, 2006

Dining Flings

Howdee-ho! Well, yesterday was my mommy dearest's birthday. Thank God I finally spoke to her on the day before her birthday, after two long days of silent treatment. If it weren't for her up-coming b'day, I don't think I'll be speaking to her till today. We argue a lot, mind you. Anyway, went to TGIFridays for dinner. Was totally on dad's pocket. We don't dine there often but everytime the menu changes. Especially the three course meals. The last time we went was during mother's day, the food was havenly! This time was a lil' bummer.

So, appetizers as tummy-rumbling starters



Bruschetta
Toast bread with salad toppings




















Buffalo Wings
Here's the thing, by the sound of "buffalo" I thought it would be BIG BIG BIG wings or spicy like hell. BUT, turns out it's pathetically small and really really salty. And I have no idea what's the tartar sauce for. It doesn't blend. Oh, but I enjoyed the raw celery though xD















Nacho(under Kids menu)
This is my first and favorite dish of NACHO! It's really tasty, especially the topping of cheese. And it blends deliciously with the sauce. I'm not sure what the sauce's called. It has chopped tomatoes, onions and a little lime I think. Nacho are warm but sauce is served chilled. YUM!















Off to the main course....


Barbeque Chicken Salad
I have to say, the picture in the MENU was a total eye-catcher. The pieces of chicken looked so big and juicy, in the MENU. But looked really dry and tiny when served. Plus, the salad had a weird taste. I couldn't tell what it was even though it's awfully familiar. After a while, I figured that it was Vinegar or Apple Cider.















Shrimp Fajita
Sounds interesting huh? I have no idea what Fajita means, though. Anyway, I like the way it was served. That's my pipsqueak brother by the way.
So, on the top plate are fresh tomatoes with lettuce mixed with cheese. See that lump of "dirrty-looking" white STUFF. That's cheese too. The whole plate is filled with cheese.

Those are shrimps in the middle. Although I don't really remember how it really tasted like, but I remember finishing the gravy in the dish. It's really good.

The last one is Pita Bread. We're supposed to wrap the ingrediants with that. Really good and not to mention very filling.





Sauteed White Fish
It's pasta with alfredo sauce served with Dory fish and shrimp. I'll give a thumb up for this one. Never knew pasta could be served with such a big slice of fish.


















Had Chocolate Malt Cake and Tropical Sundae for dessert. Sadly I didn't take pictures of em'. The Tropical Sundae looked really good. But I didn't like it because it was overly sour that gave me a shudder down my spine! The cake was damn havenly and not to mention SINFUL! I think I ate most of it xD. And one of my favorite drinks....



Le Margarita
Sadly I had to share this with my pesky brotherS, even my four-year-old brother. He was partially high. Seriously! His face flushed and he was acting hyper-actively weird. It was really hilarious to see a lil' boy go over the top. But the scary part is the fact that he's my brother. Today he complained about having headache and was surprisingly lethargic throughout the whole day. Hangover I guess. xD Mom and dad promised never to let him have anything with alcohol ever again!!!







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Wednesday, November 08, 2006

Over Expectations

Days seem to pass by so slowly and the worse part is, school holiday haven't even started yet. Although I'm sure most of us are already on a school-break. Currently working or ass-on-couch.

Anyway, I watched "World Trade Center" today. Starring Nicolas Cage and Michael Pena, and directed by award-winning Oliver Stone. The film is all about September Eleven, popularly known as 9/11, the history-making event that shocked the world even till today after 5 years. It's so typical for Holywood to make a movie out of a disaster. But anyway, I was expecting a lot of drama, action and tonnes of answers from this film. Why? Because recently I watched a documentary film by Michael Moore, titled Farenheit 9/11, also about September 11 and it was fantastic. It was really an eye-opening film and uncovered some mystery behind the incident. The film was also very touching and showed how the civilians went through the bad news they received about their loved ones. It's scary in a way. However, the movie-WTC, was very disappointing. It ONLY revolves around two men (cops) who entered the building to save people but ended up being burried in the rubble when the towers collapsed, before they could even save anyone. About 3/4 of the movie showed the cops burried under bricks, concrete, and lots of dust. During the panic moment they exchange stories about each other's family. By the way, one's a Sargent and the other's an ordinary officer. *SPOILER ALERT* The cops managed to escape, after facing death in the eye, by other cops, rescuers and paramedics. This part showed a lot of bravery and men who would risk their own lives to help their brothers-in-justice. The movie lacks of action and excitment. There was quite a number of touching moments, though. But not enough to gain a "two-thumbs up" from me, a movie-maniac.

Which reminds me of another inspiring movie I watched on StarMovies about a week ago. It's titled "Beyond Borders" starring Clive Owen and Angelina Jolie. It's a romantic tale set across many years which centers around medical student who thinks he has found his calling as an international disaster relief worker--until he gets sidetracked by a philanthropic socialite who is entrenched in a troubled marriage. The two keep inadvertently meeting up, and soon develop a special relationship, against the ever-changing backdrops of disasters and wars ---YahooMovies. The obvious part of the movie is about the romance between Jolie and Owen's characters. But the movie also emphasizes on poverty in places like Ethiopia and Cambodia. I teared a lot during the movie. You see kids like us, suffer due to lack of food and water. They don't even have proper shelter. People there suffer from AIDS and they do not have enough vaccine because the place is over-populated. Even $10 million isn't enough to settle the whole problem. I'm sure that the real situation is a lot worse than what's elaborated in the movie. Even though the setting of the movie was in the year 1984, I'm sure poverty still occurs today. Watch Oprah and her Angel Network team and you'll find out that we are so fortunate compared to the people they are working their ass off to help.

*gulps* Okaaay... I'm becoming very emotional here. Anyway, watch the movie yourself. You'll probably feel the urge to help these people. I know I do, if I have the money and the right passion to join a mission that helps people who suffer from poverty.

Each time you snap your finger, a child dies of starvation.

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Friday, November 03, 2006

White Winged Dove

Oh hail! I finally got a new phone. I can't believe I finally bought it. Well, my dad bought it xD Anyway, I wasnt expecting to get a new one so early. Thought maybe in another two years time. Didn't expect my complaints abt my spoilt old phone would actually work, not that I intended it to but was annoyed with "the telah-kaput old piece of communication". Very very very thankful right now. Even with a low budget (the seller said), I managed to buy a phone with lots of programmes in it. Well, more than enough for me at least. I bought the Sony Erricson K750i. Nokias are too expensive. Most of them are WAY over my budget. Plus, the designs keep dropping every year. Sad cause they are so user-friendly. Now I'm having trouble with text-messaging. I was really quick with the old phone and now I feel like an outdated old fella. AND I don't know how to turn the damn dictionary OFF. There are a lot of words that are not saved in (I'm Malaysian. I use a lot of self-invented words =D), so to key in a whole new word takes up a lot of time, not to mention annoying! BUT ANYWAY.... I just said I'm THANKFUL. So, shall just shut up.

So anyway. Today went to MidValley AGAIN. I know I know. The last trip was kind of a disaster and I vowed never to go again but my friends managed to convince me to ask my really really strict dad again. And he gave up. Initially we planned to go to KLCC by LRT. Dad, as usual, sad no and gave me a 2 hours lecture of "people these days are different from people before". Even the topic of cases of girls missing came up. I was like "yeah, yeah I understand..." I DO, I really really do. BUT I think he worries to much. He'll probably look 5 years younger if he Relak a lil bit. But that's impossible. In the end I finally managed to get him to allow me to go out today even though he's working and no one is home to help me if anything goes wrong. But he was dissapointed after that, and now he still kinda is. My life as a daughter is TOUGH I tell ya. But then again, I feel very safe (aside from 80% of frustration of course) Anyway, I did shop today (cause I usually have nothing to buy xD)! Tania went off with her boyfriend for mushy mushy acts in the cinema. Davinia and I went shopping for 5 long hours. Now I feet hurts like hell. FINALLY bought my sandals. Oh gawd, I was sandal-less for a month now. Been wearing my mom's. And I bought a pairt of light weights for work-out this school holidays. Need it to prevent over-load effect of being a couch potato. Again, I did not buy any clothes. The fashion there did not match me. I have this whole different idea of style, MidValley is not exactly the place for me. So what did we do for 5 hours? Walk around MidValley about 4-5 times. I think we covered up the whole mall. I notice passing by the Fitness Shop where I bought my weights 5 times! But it was fun, especially with Davvie (don't get over-flattered k, dav?). We just walk around checking out guys and giving critics about how these Malaysians dress up. Horrific at times xD After that, I FINALLY pierced my second hole. A little late I know but.... Hush Hush!!! Dad doesn't know about it. Might slaughter me if he finds out! Yes, I did a lot of FINALLYS today. Girl gone wild!

I'm really tired of walking and TALKING right now. Believe it or not, I'm now influenced by Tania and Davvie. Now talking in indian and malay slang. Using too many malay vocab now. Currently I'm trying so hard not to use any of them in this blog. But it goes haywire when I chat. Sometimes having multi-racial friends is a head-ache. Tongue-tied and confused!!!

apalah pasalnye. asyik tanye tanye aje. dah britau banyak kali dah. tak paham paham lagi ke. kesiannye. haih. xD

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Monday, October 30, 2006

High Voltaged Influence

-Woman Next Door-

Have you ever wondered why "Desperate Housewives" Tv show is so darn popular not only in the US, but also in Malaysia? It's not just about woman in sexy underwear or wild sexual relationships. It's also about DESPERATE women... housewives. What I mean exactly, it's because it revolves around real lifes stories. Watch any episode of "Desperate Housewives" and you'll go like, "Oh, that looks familiar!" or "Doesn't that remind you of Mrs Tham?" Ring-a-bell?
I on the other hand, have a horrifying personal experience related to that. I have a 'desperate houseWIFE' living directly opposite my block. I wanted to pose the picture that I took, but I think it's rather un-appropriate cause' I had signs telling me I should not xD.


No, she's not hott/blonde/steaming/Longoria looking/tight arsed/perked boobs kind of housewife. It's just an ordinary woman whom you will see jogging in Taman Paramount's park or a typical aunty yelling at her "Johnny Boy" at a hawker stall. *ahem* I'm exaggerating. Anyway, she's a plump woman, normal for women her age I understand. She walks around the house and out the balcony in skin-coloured underwear, all the time. It's comfortable I know, but for Pete's sake, there are children living directly opposite. And it's not like she has a GREAT BODY. Imagine, I have to face that almost everyday! Right in front of my DINING ROOM! Where I feast on delicious meals with a stomach wrenching scene as a dessert. Yuck!

I've been facing this for a few years now, and yes I did try to do something about it. But never had the guts to go forward with it. There was once, quite some time ago, I wrote a note to her (planned to insert it into her mailbox, childish i know). ANYWAY, the note sorta said : You shameless b*tch. You brainless HO. You @#$%&@#$!!! (I'm just kidding) *ahem* Whatever the note said, I didn't send it anyway. Fearing that she might come over to my house and protest something like : This is my body MARR. Who ask you to look LEH? I like ARK, kenot is it? No see no talk LORR. *ahem* Yeap, I GUESS she's that kinda woman.

Well, enough of DISSING her. I'm just trying to show you how "Desperate Housewives" influenced Malaysian housewives xD. She knows we're looking! And I think she LOVES the attention. The problem is, her body isnt ALL RIGHT for all these exposures! She needs to know that. I'm guessing that she's the type of woman that goes like "Hey, I love my bodeh. I'm sexah in the way I am, bitch!" BUT, look at where her dignity flew to in results of trying to be like EDIE BRITT (I'm sure you know who she is, if you watch Desperado Housewiveh xD) Now, I'm trying to live with it. Accept the fact that she is and will be my neighbour for possibly another 7-8 yrs. Tragic and horrifyingly TRUE.

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Monday, October 23, 2006

Cellular Headache

Oh dear, Oh my, Oh shit! My handphone went KAPUT! My caller can't hear me when he/she calls unless I use a handsfree. Plus, my handphone always die off with "battery low" when in fact I just charged it a few hours ago. About time actually. I think I'm one of the few who still have a black and white monophonic phone. Pathetic ain't it? But sayang lah. My first phone, plus I really loved it then... till now too. Anyway, I'm in a head pounding situation of which phone to buy. Budget no more than RM1k. Which is quite hard to get a good phone. But I've already have a few in mind. But the ones I really want exceeds the budget, darn!










So here's the cheapest, W300i costs around RM680. Features are not that great but I guess that's what I'll get with that price, no surprise.







Nokia 7360 - This one of the only Nokia phone I find rather nice. I know, some of you mind think this is awfully hideous. But I like it in a way, the design especially. This colour looks a lil lala-chinese kinda way but the one in powder pink looks better. I'm not sure if the word 'vintage' suits what I mean. Unique that is. It costs about RM638-RM805






W800i - There there.... This is the one I've wanted ever since it was first released! But the moment I heard that it costs RM1140, I almost dropped DEAD! Shitass, I can't afford it. Well, I won't spend SO MUCH just for a handphone that is. But the features are to die for I tell ya. Then again, I already have an MP3 player so what's the point right? In fact, I don't know if this model is still selling or not.




W700i - This looks almost like W800i, but it costs way cheaper, RM865. I'm not really sure what's the difference, but I think W800i is released later than this one (OBVIOUSLY), probably the features are slightly downsided compared to W800i. If ya'll have any idea, please let me know. I wouldn't wanna crawl around the store for hours just to compare features and end up not buying. It's a waste of time, and not to mention the embarrassment!




K750 - This is also almost similiar to K700 except this model has a memory stick instead of a build in memory. So I can actually upgrade this model's memory stick but will be stuck with K700's size of memory for life. This model costs about RM795, about RM200 more expensive than K700. The unfortunate part is K700 isn't selling anymore. I've asked a few shops and they said they were out of stock. Shittyness...

Back to Nokia's models. This is 7360. I saw this model a couple of times in Rihanna's music videos. Kinda fell in love with it for a while. It costs around RM1130 (overbudget). The thing is I don't know much about this phone so it's kinda risky to get it and dislike it in the end.

So, that's about it. I really really really need some help in this. Like proper advice. I don't trust the dealer's recommendations cause their intentions are to suck our blood dry! I'm in a huge dilemma right now... *sobs*

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Sunday, October 22, 2006

One's fantasy is another's Job

It was Deepavali yesterday, went to Davvie's house for dinner. It was really gooood! I think I stuffed myself a lil too much yesterday cause her mom kept serving me. And I used my bare hands to eat too, after so many years of lazing around with fork and spoon. Speaking of which, I forgot how to use a pair of chopsticks properly. Argh, what a Banana!! Anyway, yesterday was really fun cause we were chitty chatting all the way, camwhoring and talking about love, life and sex xD. And then this whole bunch of jing-jeng-gang of rapper-looking indian guys came. Apparently Davvie invited some guys. So, I was asking her if she knew them, she said she only knew three of em'. But there was about 6-7 of them in the living room. I was like "DAVVIE!!!" Anyway, they weren't really threatening, except for this one guy, ahem... MAN, looked a lil scary to me. Like as though he's a big time gangster. Anyway, we were sitting there awkwardly, and for guys who can dress like that, they're not very outspoken. Eventually I became really bored and thank goodness it was time to go home. I could practically faint of awkwardness and boredom. But overall it was alright, cause we met a few people. Oh, I also discovered a lot of Indian tradition too. Very unique and a lil strange to me, not in a bad way.

So, it's Sunday again and I'm feeling freakin' lethargic. Probably it's because I slept at 3 somethin in the morning. Was watching Hitch again, cause darn "Sir" Nickle has not returned my DVD yet - dued 2 years ago! Which reminds me, Puan Gengga has not returned my 'Just Like Heaven" DVD too. I'm such a DVD pushover. Anywaaayyy, back to Hitch - I loved the quote, "Any man can sweep any woman off her feet, he just needs to find the right broom." After I heard that, I was like 'Whoa! You're damn right, my man!' By the way, I find Will Smith so steaming hott! He's tall, dark and handsome. But he's tied, loyally too! Loved the movie, one of the best for that year!

Today, I cleaned my room AGAIN. Was so bored! Couldn't go out today cause my dad's working and I need to help my mom babysit my pesky lil' bros!! I finally finish clearing my bag from Melaka/Kukup trip. I know, I'm such a sloth! But hey, I've got the whole month to do so. Anyway, I found so many stuff while I was cleaning. I found my missing three-quarter pants, a beach wrap-around skirt, and a really tight-fitting pair of slacks. Plus, I found my sentimental-beloved ring!!! Proven that it's good cleaning your room once in a while. So, I also decorated my room with loads of rubbish and took pictures =D What? I was really bored!!!



















I saw this crammed up in my cupboard. It was a X'mas present from my cousin. I was, still am actually, a fan of Arsenal. But he didn't know I'm a BIGGER fan of Chelsea. Owh well. It's still cute.















Yeah!!! This should be it!!













My really messy board!!!
















I love this key chain!!! Dad got it from Sweden. I hung it on the board nearby my bed, for the sake of it. Is Halloween over yet??? I seriously have no idea!
















The last picture is Lampard from Astro Guide and Newspaper cut-out. I have Lampard, Chelsea and England all over my room actually. This is one of those few. I can actually see this picture from my bed xD

Argh, that's all I wanna post for today. I'm still bored! I think you could have noticed by the length of today's post. Shall go play PS, haven't been operating it for a pretty LONG time. Ciao!

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Friday, October 20, 2006

Waiting For the Right Moment to Fly Free

I'm quite devastated right now. Found a job offer, haven't exactly got it yet but the chances are high, but my dad refused to let me go. He kept on emphasizing on 'God knows what' RISKS. I don't understand, why can't he let me do things independently for once? I know he loves me and worries most of the time but he really needs to learn how to let go. I've laid out so many information, which seem really safe to me, flat on the table but he's still not convinced. I've tonnes of girlfriends who are working in OneUtama, the top-spot, and I don't think their parents (specifically DAD) gave them as much fuss as mine did. The only fact I managed to dig was they are all second daughter in the family while I'm the ONLY daughter in the family, OUCH! I know, I know, I know that he worries, he cares, yada yada... I know all that! But I need some space to fly free sometimes. And I don't think I'm getting much. That's why I've not been in a relationship for a very long time and the last one didn't quite work out partly because of all these fuss. So, the situation today really brought up bad memories and I feel so crammed up into a tiny box at the moment. After dinner, I talked to my mom, asking her to convince my dad and I told her how I really felt. So, she texted my dad, who's at work, and told him that if he doesn't let go I might dislike him and rebel him soon. I think she did a mistake by telling him that cause that's not exactly it, close... but not exactly the point. Dad replied 'if she feels that way then I have failed at the role as a father', which really broke my heart and broke me into tears. Now I've totally given up hope on applying for that job. Did I hurt him? I really didn't mean to bring up this whole situation. All I wanted to do was to work for my own money and then I wouldn't have to burden my parents when I plan to buy anything like a phone, which I really need right now cause my phone went KAPUT recently. The feeling of earning your own cash is really great, I felt it before just that the last time it was from my mom's office, which I don't wanna work there cause it gets really awkward with her colleagues and all. I really don't know what to do. I'm really hoping that he's not gonna remain like this for a long time cause I have a feeling that I'm gonna have a hard time leaving home next time, really hard time….

Anyway, I don't wanna touch on that anymore. On to pictures from Melaka. Finally managed to transfer it into my comp!



















One of my girlfriends whom I spent time bonding with!!!























I have to say, this is a really nice picture. The only clear group picture I think.




































Tigers and Lions are really LAZY big cats. Extremely LAZY. Well, cousins of Garfield proves it!





















SueVern managed to capture a picture of this adorable, sexah posing Sun-Bear for me. I was sitting on the other end of the truck, thank goodness if not i would be so tempted to reach out and touch it!!






















I went wild when i saw a Tapir there. I was squealing TAPIR TAPIR!!! What? I'm a towngirl. We don't see no endangered species around here. So what's a towngirl to do?






















Otters are amazingly adorable!!! I love the sounds that they make. It sounds like kittens, but so much cuter. I no longer yearn to have a dog. Oh dearly parents, you have more worries to come!




















This stink the hell out of all of us!! We were trapped in a caged up truck and had to pass by this group of camels. I almost passed out because i was sitting right at the side of the truck! The smell was so horrible i could actually remember the stench all the way back to the hotel till here in KL. Yuck!





















Took this picture with one of the Cowboy Stuntmen. We was quite good. The paint of his head really looked like real blood!




















The Red Indian on the left is damn hott i tell ya. He has clear six packs!!! But if u zoom into the picture you can see that my hand is awkwardly placed on his hip. I just realised it when i went through the photos. I was actually trying to space out for air cause they smelled sweaty. No wonder he was looking at me up and down in a weird way when i stood there to take the picture. Oops! Unintentionally i swear!





















RACOONS!!! Although they're pests who eat from scraps of food, but they are absurdly ADORABLE!! I've always loved racoons! Ever since Meeko from Phocohantas, and then the racoon from Over The Hedge. So cute!!!

That's all for now. Need some ZzZzZzZs for tomorrow's Deepavali lunch and dinner with full of chattering and gossips. Ciao!

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Thursday, October 19, 2006

Limited Days with Special Moments

Yoohoo... I'm back!!! Whoo, the trip was quite a blast! Had loads of fun. I didn't really miss it yesterday coz when my dad asked, I just said, "Nah, don't miss it. 3 days is enough." But now i miss it. It's really fun to have all your buddies packed up in one bus for 5 hours, although it's sometimes agonizing especially if you have someone like Sammie sitting behind you.

Anyway, the first day:
We went straight to Melaka's Safari Park. It was really hilarious. We had to sit in a funny looking truck that looked like a cage, while the animals were not caged up. So I was thinking, which are the animals? The journey was really bumpy and the rattling sound of the cage adds on to the freaky ride. Some were screaming and some were cheering. The driver must be thinking what the heck do has gotten into pesky teenagers nowadays. After lunch we all felt like checking in ASAP cause we were all exhausted!! But they brought us to a watch a few shows where animals do tricks and then a Wild Wild West show. It was a little exciting at first because the gunshots and explosions sounded so real! Then it became lame and they were doing the same ol' silly stunts. So, the crowd wasn't really participating. Shengli, Sue Vern, Han Liang and I, who sat in front, got splashed with water. We really did not expect that cowboy stunt man would splash us even though he did threaten us. After that, we took pictures and some were crazy over the Red Indians whom has six packs. After all that we checked it around 3.30 pm and needed to leave for another activity at 6 pm. Was such a rush, didn't even have time for a nap!! Then we left to the cowboy town. There's where i learned how to play snooker. Not online, for real!!! I really sucked at it. Was really fun though!! During the night, we were all having fun playing cards and watching movie. But SOMEONE had to spoil it all by bringing in a can of beer and acting like he's so cool by
doing so. For heavens sake, there're teachers in that some room. It was so silly and pissed us all. Anyway, that night all nine of us crammed up in one room gossiping till 2 am and slept there UNCOMFORTABLY.

Oh, I forgot to mention. When we were leaving Cowboy Town, SueVern and Sammie wanted to take a photograph with a cute lil’ pony. So, Sammie was asked to stand closer to the pony. That little rascal bummed Sammie away leaving all of us who witnessed it laughing out really loud!!! Sorry, Sammie xD

The next day:
We went to Melaka town and visited the historical centre and museums. Can't really remember much from here cause nothing much really happened and most of the stuff we saw are similar to our Sejarah textbook. After that, began the long trip to Kukup. Where I sat in the bus has the most annoying mysterious wind by Sammie. I swear, I didn't have enough sleep. It was really crazy in the bus. It was so noisy and the bumpy ride really gave me a real headache. But the things we did in the bus was really entertaining! When we reached Kukup, we ate seafood dinner. Before the trip, i heard that the seafood there is really good. But when I tried, it really wasn't that great. But it was quite fresh. So, we stayed that a huge area of floating chalet. There were so many facilities like a ping pong table, 3 sets of mahjong and karaoke, all in one common area. Again, i learned something new. Now i know how to play ping pong (basically)!!! It's a really good sport for indoor exercise. I have to say, we spend more energy picking up the tiny little ball though xD! We played quite a number of games that night, cards mostly. I didn't play Mahjong cause' wasnt really interested at that time. We played a game with our art teacher, Puan Kwang, the one who kicked us out of the class because we forgot to bring the items. She looks like a regular teenager i tell ya! I almost mistaken her as a schoolmate when i saw her walking in a group of friends! Sammie and I went fishing too. We were acting like dumb blondes fleeing away everytime someone tries to cast their rod. We have phobia of hooks xD. That night we planned to prank some friends early in the morning by putting toothpaste on their faces and painting their fingernails with nail polish. It didn't turn out cause our "beloved" Pn Teh (an LOA old woman who loves young boys) was awake with some boys. Plus, we were all sleepy too. *sigh* would be really fun if it worked out. Ohh well!


The last day:
The first person i saw in the morning was Tania, but she's not sleeping in the same room. I thought something went wrong! But actually we overslept and she, being "sweet", woke me up. Then we were supposed take a trip to the Mangrove Forest and another Fishing Village. But a group of us were tired and didn't have the mood for jungle hiking. So, we stayed back and I learned how to play Mahjong!!! It's really addictive!! For so many years, I've watched my family members playing during Chinese New Year, while I'm yawing all the way till' 4am. Now, I don't have to feel bored anymore, cause I can play!!! Even playing mahjong was hilarious. SueVern and Xuan was playing at first, then i watched and slowly learned. Then Shengli joined with Jerrard, her lucky charm. At that point I could see how desperate SueVern was trying to win when Shengli kept on winning. After that i took Xuan's place, the luck she left behind, and won three times in a row (beginner's luck!!!). SueVern became more and more desperate!! Of course eventually, she won quite a number of times. Was so addicted to the game and missed it all the way in the bus when we needed to leave. Lunch was annoying. There were flies everywhere. We had to fan them away every minute. And when we entered the bus we saw another fly inside. I think we transported it all the way from Kukup to KL. So, that's how disease spread!! During the journey, we watched a Singaporean movie titled "I Not Stupid 2". It was a silly movie but entertaining in a way. I teared during the ending of the movie because it was so touching. I regreted it cause darn HanLiang kept questioning about it in the bus!!

I'm really tired and sleepy right now. Even though I had a good night rest. My sleep for the past few days has gone haywire. Now, I have to unpack everything and handwash a lot of clothes that i didn't manage to do last night. I don't have anyone to help me clear up my stuff unlike SOME PEOPLE. I would love to specify that person but shall not. I think most of you would know whom I mean. Well, off to cleaning now!! Ciao~

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Sunday, October 15, 2006

Wings On Test Drive

My wings are going on a test drive tomorrow. Will be hundreds of miles away from home for 3 days. This will be my first trip so far away from home. Usually it's school camp. Not challenging enough! So, Melaka/Kukup, HERE I COME!!! Two buses are leaving at 7.30 a.m tomorrow. 7.30!!! Which means i have to get up early!! Argh... Anyway, i think we'll practically trash the "condotel". I heard it's a disappointing place. So, i won't expect much. Now i'm kinda worried whether i would enjoy myself, for some reasons. Am already packed and feeling that i've overpacked! I can't even remember EXACTLY how many tops and shorts i've packed. Dad says the bag looks like as though i'll be away for the whole week. I WISH!!! Hip hip hoorays to the fact that i'll be miles away from my pesky bros! Finally some serenity, i hope. Another thing i hope wouldnt happen is getting a haunted room. The other day we were discussing it, then we planned to combine every religious beliefs if anything goes wrong. We have protestants, catholics and budhists. SueVern and I will bring the bible, Tania will bring some holy water, but i have no idea what Shengli plans to bring. Probably will ask our fellow muslim friends to come along with their Al Qurans. There are other crazy ideas we've come up with are really hilarious. Shall see what'll happen!!

Shengli recommended me to watch this animation series online called "Happy Tree Friends". When i first landed there, i was like "hey, so adorable!!" After watching it... good heavens!! It's so brutal, the audio and animation are really gruesome! But the characters are so adorable!!!




















Adorable ain't it?? But you will be severely disturbed after watching the gruesome episodes. Like me. Thanks, shengli...

Btw, I thought Saw III is supposed to be out by now?? I've been waiting so darn long, and it isn't out yet. Probaby it's banned. Darn...
Movies to watch this month :
1. John Tucker Must Die
2. Grudge 2
3. World Trade Center
4. Devil Wears Prada

Ciao

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Friday, October 13, 2006

A little something to ponder about.

The day before yesterday we had a "No Apologies" programme. Was so excited about it cause' it's sex talk! We seldom get that education here, so it's something to look forward to. It's all about abstinence and self-control from having pre-marital sex. The content was really good. BUT, the presentator was horrible!! There were three of them, two men and a girl. One of them named Timothy was okay but his english was unbearable! The other guy, Sam, was kinda good, he's a full time clown by the way. Then there was the girl, can't remember her name. Good heavens, she was horrible! She was the most obnoxious girl i have ever met! She's so lame and not to mention totally unprofesional! I sat there for hours feeling agitated and the urge to leave ASAP! But aside from that, the programme was meaningful. After it i felt kinda bad for what i've done. No, i did not have sex. Just something overboard that was stated in the work book i got. Anyway, i've learnt a lot. Before this i actually thought i wouldnt wait. But after all the clips i watched, the consequences i might face, it's kinda scary in a way. So, i pledge i shall wait!! xD

So, today we had a talk on which stream to take next year. Boy, was it stressful! I found out that the additional subjects which i'm interested to take requires an approval letter from a tutor. I was like "WTF?!!" I can't afford so many tuition, I planned to take three additional subjects by the way. Probably you might say, "Heck, don't take it then!". But i can't! I need accounts, i have a great passion for English Literature (we'll be reading Julius Caesar, Romeo&Juliet) and i need the "1119" in order to sign up for an oversea based scholarship next time. So i can't drop any. Now, it's a financial problem. I decided to take science stream, no choice cause i have no fixed idea on what i want to be when i grow up, seriously! So, to sum it all up, i have 13 subjects to take. On opinions of others, more than half of that total subjects requires proper tuition. SHIT! Not only i have to spend loads of money on books, but on blood-sucking tutors as well! I'm in deep shit i tell ya! Plus, i'm not an only child! I have two younger brothers. And to make things worse, next yr when my bro goes to KINDERGARDEN, it will cost around "eight gees" for two years. My gosh!!! That would take up all my tuition cost. And he's only 5 at that time! Blood-sucking man!!! And when i discuss this with my parents all they can say is "Don't bother. We've planned everything. Money is not the problem. Don't think about it. Yada yada yada." It's not easy to put it behind me and splash all that cash just like that. Unlike some people, i don't have the heart to do so. My lost, BOOHOO!! So, i'm in a huge dilemma right now. To take or not to take? The run (for my dreams) or not to run? And i thought the nightmare was over, seems like there're more to come. Argghh...

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Saturday, October 07, 2006

Feathery Flight

*Drumrolls* I'm back!!! A huge huge huge relief! PMR is o-v-e-r. The heavy burden is lifted off my shoulders! Although the last paper was a total bummer, i'm still really really glad that it's all over. Plus, we get a break from school till wednesday! How good is that? Anyway, i went to MidValley yesterday with Melia, Jean, Tania and Davie. Was so excited, why? Beeeecaaaauseee the last time i went was two years ago!! =D I have to say, MidValley is so overated! After going there, i'd prefer OneUtama wayyy more. BUT i had fun! We were like the noisiest bunch there. People were giving us weird looks wherever we go. It's kinda embarassing if i think of it now, but we didnt realise it then.

Especially when we saw two white hunks on the opposite elevator. Davie was eyeing one of them and gave him a smile which totally made their nose expand!! Then we were chitty chatting about them in the food court and saw them again, as Davie wished. So, they spotted us and guess what they did? They sorta like "posed" on a nearby pillar, waiting for us to pass by as we finished our drink. But i have to say, we made a BIG deal out of it and it was so obvious! At first Davie and I was eyeing on the guy in white and he has a GI hairstyle. He looked really hawt from a distance, but when upclose... YUCK! Then we shifted to the other guy in black xD!

I had a great laugh! It was kinda tiring too. Ohh, i also had HaggenDass (is that how u spell it?) after so many years!!! It was havenly!!! Whereas the foodcourt there is underated, coz the lamb chop was excellent! It was really good, and worth it too! Hmm, what else? Oh, i saw a really nice black dress at Rest&Relax. Really liked it! But there's always a downside! It cost RM169!!! I was like WHOA!! And i'm probably gonna wear it once for my cousin's wedding and never wear it again. BUMMER i tell ya! Anyway, yesterday was so much fun. But there was something missing. Hunneh Yeen wasnt there. If she was, the mall would have crashed.

Headline : Pals Demolished Mall

Since PMR is over there are so many stuffs that i can do. But before all the fun, i have to clean my room. It looks like as though a hurricane just passed my room. I seriously dont know how i sleep and survived in it! Now i know how nasty i am. Nasty at the wrong cause. Argh... there are so many things to blog about. But i just lost the mood to do so. So exhausted!!! Well, i shall lazze off then. Ciao!

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Monday, September 18, 2006

A huge punch of thoughts

Hey. I've just watched Farenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore on HBO a couple of minutes ago. It's funny, you see. Nothing had struck my mind on why United States attacked Iraq about two years ago. I've always thought it was the terrorists who provoked the US and some sort of millitary nuclear weapon. After watching three quarter of the 2 hours documentary, many questions just popped into my mind, it's really thought-provoking! Why did the United States attack Iraq? Where were the suspected nuclear weapons? Was there a connection between Bush and the 9/11 incident about five years ago? Is Bush related to the Bin Laden line that's secretly covered up? Did Bush made the dicision to attack Iraq on personal matters? I know, i know. It's been two years, but it's only now that I've thought about it. Now i notice how ignorant i am towards world events. Thousands of soldiers and civilians died for no reason. The death toll is still piling up until today. One simple question - Why? Greed for oil? For power? Or worse - personal matters? Go watch Farenheit 9/11 on HBO, then you'll understand why i'm bringing up this outdated issue that probably was already solved. But i'm still quite clueless. I also just realized that millions of US citizens was dupped by their fellow president, George W. Bush. What a shame. Or probably i don't know the whole thing to comment on it.

Ohh well! Currently i'm trying really really hard to study Geography without dozing off. It's difficult i tell ya. With the temptation of TV and online. Which i gave in to both, obviously! Anyway, i'm just here for a while to post about the documentary i've just watched. I highly recommend it. For those who had no idea, like me, on what exactly happened two years ago which made a huge controversy around the world. I'm so ignorant. Shame on me...

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Friday, September 15, 2006

Slumber of Chaos

~Slumber of Chaos~

I'm sick and i'm tired. And all i want is to sleep peacefully for at least 4 hours a day. But i friggin' mind won't let me. I often doze off into pitts of chaos. My mind refuses to rest peacefully. I just woke up from a nap, which i really had to take coz' my head is starting to heat up. When i woke up, I find myself staring into blank space thinking about nuts (no, not balls). And by the time i snap out of it, 5 minutes has passed by. I think i have mild trauma from nightmares. Because i tend to think about it a lot, and it bothers me at times. I wouldnt say my nightmares revolves around silly things like ghosts, monsters or school incidents.... you know what i mean.

My nightmares often contains deaths, murders, lies and cons, conspiracy.... most of the time - end of the world and how it effects me. Actually it's not exactly the end of the word cause i have no idea how it's like, how do i explain it? Hmm, debris everywhere, dead bodies lying here and there, and i'm the only one left on the planet with a solitary company. There's something for me to do. Like a certain responsibility, which i find ridiculous (in the dream). Whenever i dream of death, sometimes it's someone i do not know, but somehow i feel like i have a connection with that person. And most of the time, i feel like it's trying to connect to me and tell me something. Plus, i have to do something related to it after that! Besides that, dreams of lies, cons and conspiracy keeps loading my mind, which i would wake up in anger and sometimes - hate. Loads of dreams that are trying to tell me something. It's too complicated for me to understand, but i know something is there. Even when i dream of comething CASUAL, it will turn complicating in the end, no matter what!

It really disturbs me mentally! It's so mind boggling! It's not really often, but it's frequent enough to make me so darn sleepy. Sometimes i feel so drained out mentally, all i wanna do is just faint - blank! Why do my nightmares or typical dreams have to turn out so complicated? There's always a twist at every angle. My head hurts so bad right now. Resulted from the dream i just woke up in about 20 minutes ago. That was one of the most disturbing dreams i've had. Not scary, but freaky. Even the word freaky wouldnt describe it fully.

~OK, FREEZE AND REWIND! I sound mentally unstable now. Which i don't think i am coz it only affects me some delusions a while after i wake up. Then of course feeling sleepy throughout the day due to unpeaceful nights, which i think is totally normal right? RIGHT?? Should i seek help? Or am i still a little woozy coz i just woke up not long ago? I'm feeling that i think too much. Arggh!!! It hurts.

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Tuesday, September 12, 2006

2 to 1 and I lost

Someone please safe me from 20,000 feet under "misery".
Got back a couple of papers today. News ain't so good! Although my morning's result was rather shocking, but contented, after that disaster by disaster came striking - non stop! Well, I finally got an A for Geography, for my mom, cause she keeps saying that I probably won't get straight A's because of Geography. Well, mom, I have good news for you, Geography is in good hands. Bad news is, you have two other subjects to worry about - BM and KH. I got a bright and shiny B for both.
I still find it hard to swallow, what more digest?! When I got back my BM's paper 1 I was a lil' disapointed but, i admit, was confident enough to at least get the border line of A - 75%. When i got the paper this morning, the marks i got was FAR from reaching that shiny A! Was so devastated, i tell ya! D-E-V-A-S-T-A-T-E-D!!! There was even no hope to beg for pitty marks from teacher. Soon, i found out that i lost marks because i DID NOT READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY!!! What a ridiculous way to lose marks. It made me explode(into shattered little pieces) and - cried. Bah! As for KH? Kinda knew i wouldnt do well. But was really really really hoping that luck will be on my side. Clearly it wasnt. Plus, they had to take the first set of paper, which i got B, instead of the second set, which i got A. SHITTY WEI!!!
So now, i have two B's! And i havent got back my Science paper yet. The teachers are using these results to determine which class to go to next year. I'll end upin the 5A/4A's class, i think (HOPE NOT!!). I am so freaking disapointed at myself. Can practically punch myself in the face!! But i'll leave that to my mom. Thank goodness she'll be home a little late today. Enough time for me to gather up all the strength i have. God knows what would happen. Help me!!!

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Sunday, September 10, 2006

Haunted Haunts

~BLOOD SHED CONTINUES IN OCTOBER~

(not suitable for preggers, underage pesky kids and the weak hearted, only suitable for fans who managed to swallow hard during the previous movies. enjoy~)

Friday, September 08, 2006

Strange Foreign

LoL, second post in 2 hours. So, i was blogging just a few minutes ago. Then this guy with the nickname im,PIMPIN started bugging me. It was this guy whom i played pool with from Alaska. I don't know why on earth i gave him my email add the last time. He kept bugging me to have an audio convo with him, which i declined twice. Then he bugged me for a video convo. It was annoying because i was busy updating my blog, which i haven't been doing in a week! So i finally gave in with fingers crossed hoping that he wont flash me like how most guys i met online. Thankfully he didnt, plus his looks are not bad!






















He is one of the worse foreign guys i have ever chatted with. I dont know if he's shy, but i don't think he knows how to communicate. That's why i'm blogging about this. Unlike other guys, he just turns on the webcam and not chat, for no reason. Just staring at his comp waiting for me to type something. So i got fed up and continued blogging. Until.....











This freaky guy took over his place. Then i think they sorta argued over the comp because both of them just disappeared leaving only a chair on web cam with a freaked out girl halfway around the world from him!!!

Anyway, that's it. Currently i'm thinking why am i blogging about this? And about my furniture. *smack forehead* I must be really out of ideas besides cramping exams and trials. Too lazy to delete these posts too. Argh darn...

I HOPE THIS GUY DOES NOT FIND MY BLOG, HE WOULD THINK THAT I'M A NUT CASE!!! maybe i am...

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Relax For Today, Drain Out Tommorow

At last i can rest for today!!! Just did Geography trial about 4 hours ago. I'm feeling that i'm so gonna flunk that paper. It wasnt that difficult, but i didnt study enough. Same thing for science. Was quite easy, but i didnt study and memorize enough. Was so pissed, at myself. Could have done better. *sighs* Anyway, i shall update about what i did this week besides studying. So, my parents FINALLY decided to buy a new tv bench from IKEA. It took them months to choose a certain design and another 3 months to actually purchase it. Waiting for the price to drop they say. Cost about RM1,700. Quite expensive to us, but affordable. So we started fixing it up about a week after the purchase. It was tough i tell ya. I rather study, i know - weird. I got tonnes of splinters and bruises. The materials were so darn heavy! And it was a tough job getting it all fixed. Loads of mess too! Plus, i found a whole lot of junk!
















That's a bunch of little liquor bottles beside a Sweedish wooden doll on a tiny musical piano. I have no idea what's in between em'. I think it's a pair of porceline China shoes - weird i know.













My whole bunch of VCR cassettes. Did not have the heart to dump them. Each cost about RM29.90 each, about 5 years ago. I guess they're just priceless now. My childhood cartoons and movies are all there : Cinderella, Little Mermaid, Alladdin, Land B4 Time, Jumanji, Lion King, Tou Story, Sleeping Beauty... LOTS MORE!!! And they're mostly original. I can't imagine. I must have been a spoilt bratt. Didnt know that my parents were willing to spend so much money on cartoons for MEEE.... Aww, i feel loved! xD

So anyway, after two days of hard work. My daddy and i finally succeeded and now this is how it looks before and after.













Not a proper "before" picture though. This was 1/3 way through. Got the Tv bench set-up. And after...













After all the hard, hard work. I shall no longer insult Malaysia for not having a Home Depot (a store with many wood works and DIY furnitures) branch. I can live without it now. Don't know why i was excited about new furniture. LoL. Probably because i seldom buy new furnitures. So it was quite a big change in the living room. Haha, i'm an "average" person. Ohh, got a problem too.












The amplifier on the left hand side was a little too heavy. As you can see, the wood is a little curved down to the left and right hand side. So it's kinda arched at the Woofer's (is that how u spell it?) compartment. My dad dreaded about this for the whole day! I guess the felt a pinch in his heart........... and his pocket.

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