A Little Bit of Gravity

Needs a dash of reality before I lose myself.

Feels that too much of a good thing might be damaging.

Why am I always expecting the worst when things are going so well.

I'm afraid if I want something so badly, I might just lose it.

Feeling really vulnerable...

I blame gravity for falling so deeply for you.

I need to concentrate! Mocks in a week. Help?!

Oh twice as much ain't twice as good

And can't sustain like a one half could

It's wanting more

That's gonna send me to my knees

Realisation

I know this might be too lil too soon to say,

but I've been enjoying things a lil more now :)

ever since I changed my perceptive and tried to enjoy little things,

than bitch and complain about insignificant ones.

I'm glad and I really hope it stays this way for now.

Although it might just fade as soon as it came,

I'm enjoying every moment of it now.

Am not gonna be beaten down just because I'm in a hell course :p

On another note : I NEED MONEY.

I'm desperately finding for ways to make money.

Like a job or something, but that's quite impossible with countless hours spent in college.

And not to mention up coming MAJOR exam.

"Parents" will not cut it. Don't wanna deal with the guilt.

Any suggestions?

It has gotta be CLEAN! *coughs*

~strutting off :p

"When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on."

~Franklin D. Roosevelt

Delivary : Restraining Order

3 weeks till mocks.
23 days to be exact.
4 subjects to revise.
Less than 6 hours of sleep daily.
289237123212737 brain cells to kill.
8384718621938172387840314182910913014 things to complete
0 hours of entertainment.
Okay, maybe about 10 hours a week :D (gLee!)
Strike-out on social life outside of college.

It better be worth it.

(: imustgotouk.imustgotouk.imustgotouk :)

Of Realisation

Probably isolation might work, again.

Gotta not let it get to me!

This wall is rising up again.

Setting my priorities straight.

Gonna work for that dream.

Let's reach the impossible.

it hurts less when you care less,

expect the least; receive the unexpected.

The Glam & The Sham

Alright, so I don't usually do a post on Hollywood's Fashion shebang... But I can't help it this time. I just lovelovelove The Oscars, because it's all glamorous and classy. Plus, I get to see all my favorite movie stars, and it's an inner satisfaction to have the ability to name every actor/actress that goes on stage.


I missed the Red Carpet opening, so I checked out The Fashion Police.net to keep myself updated :D Only managed to watch bits n' pieces of the whole night (double tasking with Further Maths : BAD IDEA!). Thought it was BRILLIANT that The Academy paired Steve Martin and Alec Baldwin as the hosts. They were a hilarious pair xD

Anyhooo... Let's go straight to the amazing gowns! With a few sore-eyes in between :/

Helen Mirren

This is my ultimate favorite! Helen totally nailed that dress marvelously! Age appropriate, with subtle fabric to cover her shoulders. Definitely better than fugly aunty shawls xD She's definitely an idol with such great talent. The way she ages gracefully really amazes everyone

Miley Cirus

What in the world? I never approve of undergarments outside an outfit. They are called UNDERgarments for a reason. Liked the bottom half, though. Some may credit it as bold to wear something like that, but I don't think it was appropriate for Miley (who's being watched by tonnes of Disney kids) to parade something like that.

Meryl Streep

Another amazing woman, who's so full of talent and charisma. I watched her movies since I was a little kid. In my opinion she's by far one of the greatest actresses in Hollywood, and her performance in Julie&Julia is the proof for it :) Although the dress was a tad bit boring, but her awesomeness overpowers it :D

Rachel McAdams

Golly geee... I just looove this dress. Totally caught my eye. It has such a beautiful flow, it kinda creates the imaginary wind effect! She's gorgeous in it! Love her toned figure!

Kristen Stewart

Beautiful dress with just the right density of fabric that worked so well with her skin tone, but she failed to make it shine so badly. Bah! What a waste of assets!

Zoe Saldana

All I have to ask is : Who let the (coloured) poodles out?!

Anna Kendrick

Ah I just love the off shoulder, the way the beautiful soft and dainty fabric wrapped around her small figure; and that peek of laces around the slit. Nicely done :)

Jeniffer Lopez in Giorgio Armani Prive

Never a fan of J-Lo's fashion sense and although this changed The Fashion Police's mind, it definitely did not change mine. What is that? Bubble wrap? And the way the "fabric" was gathered to her hip, is just disastrous. Somehow anything on her would look rather trashy :x

Amanda Seyfried

Another bubble wrap-looking dress! But at least it still looks rather decent and not recyclable-trash-like. And the way Amanda pull it off, gave it a modern spin.

Mariah Carey

Again, anything on this lady looks TRASHY! She's trying to throw a va-va-voom, but not at every edge of your body! Booms everywhere would just make it look like your assets are competing with each other for MAJOR attention. Like every other Red Carpet moments, this dress look 2 sizes too small for her.

Sandra Bullock

After receiving a Razzie, she actually walked off with an Oscar. Go figure! This was supposed to be her defining moment, because she has never really gotten the spotlight on her work, which hasn't been great. I was shocked she won. But oh well, I haven't watched The Blind Side to judge. This is not a winning look though. Unlike Halle Berry who walked off as a winner looking like the Golden Statue itself last year! This gives me a *yaaaaawwwwnnnn*

Elizabeth Banks in Versace

I just love Versace's designs. They're always simple yet elegant, with an edgy spin to it :D Love the bust area all the way to the hips. Not a fan of all that ruffles, a bit too much going on down there. Swallowed the attention from her LOVELY shoes! She looks stunning :)

Charlize Theron in Dior

Last but every bit of the LEAST! We always expect the best from Charlize, because she has the killer body and the KILLER designer. But the past few years have been such disappointments. This is worse than the awkward enormous ribbon that she brought along on her shoulder last year. What's on Charlize's mind? "I should definitely draw their attention on my boobs, that way people would shut up...!"

That wraps it up! Phew! Seriously, not used to writing about fashion, thus lots to crack up. But I've been opening my eyes to all these... Graduation night is coming real soon, and I'm on a dress hunt! This year's Oscars gave me a pretty good insight of ideas on what to look for. Next up, SHOPPING SPREEEEEE! :D

Off to bury myself in work, again. TOODLES!

When All Else Fails...

Animals - House of the Rising Sun

I may be a lil' dark (but not as twisty as Meredith Grey) at times when optimism is much needed, but I'm glad that everytime that happens, people surprise me. Friends surprise me. And I think I might just pull through the negativity weighing on me. Baby tells me I need to work on not being so pessimistic and paranoid about everything. Well, I am trying, but it's tough when I had years of bad experience. But I have to say, these wounds are patching up as I stroll along. Although it's a bloody slow process, at least it's possible.

Some mornings when I wake up, I wish I didn't have to. So that I can remain in that remarkable realm where colours are more vivid than in the real world. Every night is like a fictitious movie recap for me. Where I'm battling against the apocalypse, or just lurking in the darkness of an invasion. And when I wake up, I would realise how dull life truly is. I have yet to find my purpose in life. Or maybe it's just not my time yet. Whatever it is, I'll be waiting for that time to come. And in the mean time, I'll be enjoying every adventurous fantasy I can get in slumberland :D

Anyway... Thanks, guys. For all your support and encouragement. It means a lot, and it definitely helps me inch forward :)

And thanks to you, Baby, my life is no longer an empty canvas <3

If Only Generic...

Got a kick in my rear end.

Things don't always go your way. And good news somehow comes with a sore spot.

Finally got the offer I've been waiting for, but the requirements seem almost impossible to reach. Nah, actually it IS possible. Just that I have LOTS to sacrifice. And I gotta work extra hard. Which means more late nights, and a snip off in my social life. Haven't gone out, as in GONE OUT for a while now. Which is why I'm so counting on this Saturday's night out to be my last before I enter the war zone.

I know I can do better, but I've been so into my lazy comfort zone, that I forgot how important it was to try. That's till I got the hard kick in the butt. I really hope it's not too late to do something about it now. I'm pretty left behind in Further Maths, which I have to ace. Not an easy subject to take on your own without proper guidance. Doubt I can pick it up overnight miraculously like how I've handled Add Maths years before. I've been telling myself, week after week after week, SIT YOUR ASS DOWN AND DO SOMETHING. Seriously... Easier said than done. There's just so much to handle, it's crazy. The seniors were right, A2 is hell.

I'm probably just being all whiny about it once again. My mind is totally digging all sorts of excuses to tell me that it's impossible, so why fuss about it... But this is such a sweet, delicious, life-changing, adventurous, stupendous, splendid, marvelous opportunity and I'd be a fool to let it slip off! I can't even imagine, what would it be like to be over the sea, miles away, with different people, different culture, and it's like a whole new world. Maaan... I'm talking about London, baby! Been dying to go there since I was a lil' kid. What more study there.

BAH! Life truly isn't easy. Who the hell designed it that way? If only life could be a breeze. Ah, don't we all wish it would be rainbows and ponies all over...

I finally got my opportunity, and this is the one time I feel like I just can't make it. Just have the sickest feeling in my gut that I'm gonna screw it up. So now I'm spiraling down this shit hole, trying to figure out what to do.

Struggle like a stallion, or float away like a dandelion in the wind; and hope to land on another dream?

Decisions... Decisions... What did I get myself into, again, this time?

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

[Coldplay - The Scientist]