Thank God for Futsal today. Haven't had the chance to play sports for a long while now, and my bones are starting to age like a 70-year-old nana. And we actually won! Rather silly though. Only 4 teams turned up, and we went straight to the semis. Then our opponent was a no-show, and we got a walkthrough. Ended up winning the one and only game we played. Easiest path to winning, by far. Sunway Student Council seriously need to patch up on their Sports Carnival. Bad planning! And it was all over the place. No wonder my lecturer made a huge fuss last year, and I thought she was over-reacting. There were students smoking on the field, while we were playing sports, and the Student Council did nothing to stop em. I mean, HELLOOO! Whatever happened to "No Smoking On Campus"? Dumbasses...
I was pretty busted up after the match, thanks to the muddy field. And I just couldn't focus. Exams really kill all the fun ahead of you. And entertainment. I can't even catch the major movies released without having the urge of killing myself outta guilt! *sobs* Iron Man 2, Ip Man 2 and Toy Story! Gaaah. Just go ahead and kill me now...
I'm just a lil fed up about the bumpy road I've been facing for the past months. I've been telling myself, to ignore and just move on. But I guess it's not that easy, cause somehow it always tails you from behind and bites on your bottom reaaaal hard! OUCH! They say time heals wounds. Well yeah? It's taking pretty darn long, alright. He's right. My brick wall is just gonna eat me up slowly, if not instantly. I'm just not the type to let go that easily, unless circumstances push me to.
Lately I've been getting so many signs that are telling me to do something about this stagnant situation. Time did not do it justice, and somehow I was led to believe that it would be the solution. I had dreams for several nights that scared the shit outta me cause it made me realise my true fear. I knew about it, but never dealt with it. Trust. Believe me when I say this, it's a privilege. One that I fear I might never have. Another face-slapping sign came in a comedy flick, Bride Wars. There was this final moment in the movie when both my mom and the boyfriend just turned and looked at me, sharing the same thoughts. No, not about the wedding, but the ya know the big picture. I don't wanna drag about it. The following day came a topic about "confrontations" on Lite.FM and the soaking of boyfriend's shoulder came after.
Anyway... Another unexpected, yet so obvious, sign came in a coffee shop. Met your brother. Contemplated to greet him, and almost got cold feet at the final moment, but decided to just go for it. It's nice to finally hear that you've been doing fine from someone who would really knows. And his gleaming smile made me realise how much I miss you. And it pains me even more to hear that you're no longer interested in patching things up, although it wasn't straight from you, but yeah I figured.
It's true what they say, moving on ain't easy. But who knew it would be this hard? I wish I handled things differently with a bigger view of the situation disintegrating around us. But I guess this is one of those times when people wish they could turn back time.
And we all know it ain't possible...
Just letting off some burden from my heavy heart, before I disappear from this blogsphere once again... Gah I seriously hate exams! At least this is the one hurdle I have in my control...
Hello world
How've you been
Good to see you my old friend
Sometimes I feel as cold as steel
And broken like I'm never gonna heal
I see a light, a little grace, little faith unfurled.
Hello world
[Lady Antebellum - Hello World]
