High Voltaged Influence

-Woman Next Door-

Have you ever wondered why "Desperate Housewives" Tv show is so darn popular not only in the US, but also in Malaysia? It's not just about woman in sexy underwear or wild sexual relationships. It's also about DESPERATE women... housewives. What I mean exactly, it's because it revolves around real lifes stories. Watch any episode of "Desperate Housewives" and you'll go like, "Oh, that looks familiar!" or "Doesn't that remind you of Mrs Tham?" Ring-a-bell?
I on the other hand, have a horrifying personal experience related to that. I have a 'desperate houseWIFE' living directly opposite my block. I wanted to pose the picture that I took, but I think it's rather un-appropriate cause' I had signs telling me I should not xD.

No, she's not hott/blonde/steaming/Longoria looking/tight arsed/perked boobs kind of housewife. It's just an ordinary woman whom you will see jogging in Taman Paramount's park or a typical aunty yelling at her "Johnny Boy" at a hawker stall. *ahem* I'm exaggerating. Anyway, she's a plump woman, normal for women her age I understand. She walks around the house and out the balcony in skin-coloured underwear, all the time. It's comfortable I know, but for Pete's sake, there are children living directly opposite. And it's not like she has a GREAT BODY. Imagine, I have to face that almost everyday! Right in front of my DINING ROOM! Where I feast on delicious meals with a stomach wrenching scene as a dessert. Yuck!

I've been facing this for a few years now, and yes I did try to do something about it. But never had the guts to go forward with it. There was once, quite some time ago, I wrote a note to her (planned to insert it into her mailbox, childish i know). ANYWAY, the note sorta said : You shameless b*tch. You brainless HO. You @#$%&@#$!!! (I'm just kidding) *ahem* Whatever the note said, I didn't send it anyway. Fearing that she might come over to my house and protest something like : This is my body MARR. Who ask you to look LEH? I like ARK, kenot is it? No see no talk LORR. *ahem* Yeap, I GUESS she's that kinda woman.

Well, enough of DISSING her. I'm just trying to show you how "Desperate Housewives" influenced Malaysian housewives xD. She knows we're looking! And I think she LOVES the attention. The problem is, her body isnt ALL RIGHT for all these exposures! She needs to know that. I'm guessing that she's the type of woman that goes like "Hey, I love my bodeh. I'm sexah in the way I am, bitch!" BUT, look at where her dignity flew to in results of trying to be like EDIE BRITT (I'm sure you know who she is, if you watch Desperado Housewiveh xD) Now, I'm trying to live with it. Accept the fact that she is and will be my neighbour for possibly another 7-8 yrs. Tragic and horrifyingly TRUE.

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Cellular Headache

Oh dear, Oh my, Oh shit! My handphone went KAPUT! My caller can't hear me when he/she calls unless I use a handsfree. Plus, my handphone always die off with "battery low" when in fact I just charged it a few hours ago. About time actually. I think I'm one of the few who still have a black and white monophonic phone. Pathetic ain't it? But sayang lah. My first phone, plus I really loved it then... till now too. Anyway, I'm in a head pounding situation of which phone to buy. Budget no more than RM1k. Which is quite hard to get a good phone. But I've already have a few in mind. But the ones I really want exceeds the budget, darn!










So here's the cheapest, W300i costs around RM680. Features are not that great but I guess that's what I'll get with that price, no surprise.

Nokia 7360 - This one of the only Nokia phone I find rather nice. I know, some of you mind think this is awfully hideous. But I like it in a way, the design especially. This colour looks a lil lala-chinese kinda way but the one in powder pink looks better. I'm not sure if the word 'vintage' suits what I mean. Unique that is. It costs about RM638-RM805

W800i - There there.... This is the one I've wanted ever since it was first released! But the moment I heard that it costs RM1140, I almost dropped DEAD! Shitass, I can't afford it. Well, I won't spend SO MUCH just for a handphone that is. But the features are to die for I tell ya. Then again, I already have an MP3 player so what's the point right? In fact, I don't know if this model is still selling or not.

W700i - This looks almost like W800i, but it costs way cheaper, RM865. I'm not really sure what's the difference, but I think W800i is released later than this one (OBVIOUSLY), probably the features are slightly downsided compared to W800i. If ya'll have any idea, please let me know. I wouldn't wanna crawl around the store for hours just to compare features and end up not buying. It's a waste of time, and not to mention the embarrassment!

K750 - This is also almost similiar to K700 except this model has a memory stick instead of a build in memory. So I can actually upgrade this model's memory stick but will be stuck with K700's size of memory for life. This model costs about RM795, about RM200 more expensive than K700. The unfortunate part is K700 isn't selling anymore. I've asked a few shops and they said they were out of stock. Shittyness...

Back to Nokia's models. This is 7360. I saw this model a couple of times in Rihanna's music videos. Kinda fell in love with it for a while. It costs around RM1130 (overbudget). The thing is I don't know much about this phone so it's kinda risky to get it and dislike it in the end.

So, that's about it. I really really really need some help in this. Like proper advice. I don't trust the dealer's recommendations cause their intentions are to suck our blood dry! I'm in a huge dilemma right now... *sobs*

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One's fantasy is another's Job

It was Deepavali yesterday, went to Davvie's house for dinner. It was really gooood! I think I stuffed myself a lil too much yesterday cause her mom kept serving me. And I used my bare hands to eat too, after so many years of lazing around with fork and spoon. Speaking of which, I forgot how to use a pair of chopsticks properly. Argh, what a Banana!! Anyway, yesterday was really fun cause we were chitty chatting all the way, camwhoring and talking about love, life and sex xD. And then this whole bunch of jing-jeng-gang of rapper-looking indian guys came. Apparently Davvie invited some guys. So, I was asking her if she knew them, she said she only knew three of em'. But there was about 6-7 of them in the living room. I was like "DAVVIE!!!" Anyway, they weren't really threatening, except for this one guy, ahem... MAN, looked a lil scary to me. Like as though he's a big time gangster. Anyway, we were sitting there awkwardly, and for guys who can dress like that, they're not very outspoken. Eventually I became really bored and thank goodness it was time to go home. I could practically faint of awkwardness and boredom. But overall it was alright, cause we met a few people. Oh, I also discovered a lot of Indian tradition too. Very unique and a lil strange to me, not in a bad way.

So, it's Sunday again and I'm feeling freakin' lethargic. Probably it's because I slept at 3 somethin in the morning. Was watching Hitch again, cause darn "Sir" Nickle has not returned my DVD yet - dued 2 years ago! Which reminds me, Puan Gengga has not returned my 'Just Like Heaven" DVD too. I'm such a DVD pushover. Anywaaayyy, back to Hitch - I loved the quote, "Any man can sweep any woman off her feet, he just needs to find the right broom." After I heard that, I was like 'Whoa! You're damn right, my man!' By the way, I find Will Smith so steaming hott! He's tall, dark and handsome. But he's tied, loyally too! Loved the movie, one of the best for that year!

Today, I cleaned my room AGAIN. Was so bored! Couldn't go out today cause my dad's working and I need to help my mom babysit my pesky lil' bros!! I finally finish clearing my bag from Melaka/Kukup trip. I know, I'm such a sloth! But hey, I've got the whole month to do so. Anyway, I found so many stuff while I was cleaning. I found my missing three-quarter pants, a beach wrap-around skirt, and a really tight-fitting pair of slacks. Plus, I found my sentimental-beloved ring!!! Proven that it's good cleaning your room once in a while. So, I also decorated my room with loads of rubbish and took pictures =D What? I was really bored!!!



















I saw this crammed up in my cupboard. It was a X'mas present from my cousin. I was, still am actually, a fan of Arsenal. But he didn't know I'm a BIGGER fan of Chelsea. Owh well. It's still cute.















Yeah!!! This should be it!!













My really messy board!!!
















I love this key chain!!! Dad got it from Sweden. I hung it on the board nearby my bed, for the sake of it. Is Halloween over yet??? I seriously have no idea!
















The last picture is Lampard from Astro Guide and Newspaper cut-out. I have Lampard, Chelsea and England all over my room actually. This is one of those few. I can actually see this picture from my bed xD

Argh, that's all I wanna post for today. I'm still bored! I think you could have noticed by the length of today's post. Shall go play PS, haven't been operating it for a pretty LONG time. Ciao!

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Waiting For the Right Moment to Fly Free

I'm quite devastated right now. Found a job offer, haven't exactly got it yet but the chances are high, but my dad refused to let me go. He kept on emphasizing on 'God knows what' RISKS. I don't understand, why can't he let me do things independently for once? I know he loves me and worries most of the time but he really needs to learn how to let go. I've laid out so many information, which seem really safe to me, flat on the table but he's still not convinced. I've tonnes of girlfriends who are working in OneUtama, the top-spot, and I don't think their parents (specifically DAD) gave them as much fuss as mine did. The only fact I managed to dig was they are all second daughter in the family while I'm the ONLY daughter in the family, OUCH! I know, I know, I know that he worries, he cares, yada yada... I know all that! But I need some space to fly free sometimes. And I don't think I'm getting much. That's why I've not been in a relationship for a very long time and the last one didn't quite work out partly because of all these fuss. So, the situation today really brought up bad memories and I feel so crammed up into a tiny box at the moment. After dinner, I talked to my mom, asking her to convince my dad and I told her how I really felt. So, she texted my dad, who's at work, and told him that if he doesn't let go I might dislike him and rebel him soon. I think she did a mistake by telling him that cause that's not exactly it, close... but not exactly the point. Dad replied 'if she feels that way then I have failed at the role as a father', which really broke my heart and broke me into tears. Now I've totally given up hope on applying for that job. Did I hurt him? I really didn't mean to bring up this whole situation. All I wanted to do was to work for my own money and then I wouldn't have to burden my parents when I plan to buy anything like a phone, which I really need right now cause my phone went KAPUT recently. The feeling of earning your own cash is really great, I felt it before just that the last time it was from my mom's office, which I don't wanna work there cause it gets really awkward with her colleagues and all. I really don't know what to do. I'm really hoping that he's not gonna remain like this for a long time cause I have a feeling that I'm gonna have a hard time leaving home next time, really hard time….

Anyway, I don't wanna touch on that anymore. On to pictures from Melaka. Finally managed to transfer it into my comp!

One of my girlfriends whom I spent time bonding with!!!

I have to say, this is a really nice picture. The only clear group picture I think.

Tigers and Lions are really LAZY big cats. Extremely LAZY. Well, cousins of Garfield proves it!

SueVern managed to capture a picture of this adorable, sexah posing Sun-Bear for me. I was sitting on the other end of the truck, thank goodness if not i would be so tempted to reach out and touch it!!

I went wild when i saw a Tapir there. I was squealing TAPIR TAPIR!!! What? I'm a towngirl. We don't see no endangered species around here. So what's a towngirl to do?

Otters are amazingly adorable!!! I love the sounds that they make. It sounds like kittens, but so much cuter. I no longer yearn to have a dog. Oh dearly parents, you have more worries to come!

This stink the hell out of all of us!! We were trapped in a caged up truck and had to pass by this group of camels. I almost passed out because i was sitting right at the side of the truck! The smell was so horrible i could actually remember the stench all the way back to the hotel till here in KL. Yuck!

Took this picture with one of the Cowboy Stuntmen. We was quite good. The paint of his head really looked like real blood!

The Red Indian on the left is damn hott i tell ya. He has clear six packs!!! But if u zoom into the picture you can see that my hand is awkwardly placed on his hip. I just realised it when i went through the photos. I was actually trying to space out for air cause they smelled sweaty. No wonder he was looking at me up and down in a weird way when i stood there to take the picture. Oops! Unintentionally i swear!





















RACOONS!!! Although they're pests who eat from scraps of food, but they are absurdly ADORABLE!! I've always loved racoons! Ever since Meeko from Phocohantas, and then the racoon from Over The Hedge. So cute!!!

That's all for now. Need some ZzZzZzZs for tomorrow's Deepavali lunch and dinner with full of chattering and gossips. Ciao!

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Limited Days with Special Moments

Yoohoo... I'm back!!! Whoo, the trip was quite a blast! Had loads of fun. I didn't really miss it yesterday coz when my dad asked, I just said, "Nah, don't miss it. 3 days is enough." But now i miss it. It's really fun to have all your buddies packed up in one bus for 5 hours, although it's sometimes agonizing especially if you have someone like Sammie sitting behind you.

Anyway, the first day:
We went straight to Melaka's Safari Park. It was really hilarious. We had to sit in a funny looking truck that looked like a cage, while the animals were not caged up. So I was thinking, which are the animals? The journey was really bumpy and the rattling sound of the cage adds on to the freaky ride. Some were screaming and some were cheering. The driver must be thinking what the heck do has gotten into pesky teenagers nowadays. After lunch we all felt like checking in ASAP cause we were all exhausted!! But they brought us to a watch a few shows where animals do tricks and then a Wild Wild West show. It was a little exciting at first because the gunshots and explosions sounded so real! Then it became lame and they were doing the same ol' silly stunts. So, the crowd wasn't really participating. Shengli, Sue Vern, Han Liang and I, who sat in front, got splashed with water. We really did not expect that cowboy stunt man would splash us even though he did threaten us. After that, we took pictures and some were crazy over the Red Indians whom has six packs. After all that we checked it around 3.30 pm and needed to leave for another activity at 6 pm. Was such a rush, didn't even have time for a nap!! Then we left to the cowboy town. There's where i learned how to play snooker. Not online, for real!!! I really sucked at it. Was really fun though!! During the night, we were all having fun playing cards and watching movie. But SOMEONE had to spoil it all by bringing in a can of beer and acting like he's so cool by doing so. For heavens sake, there're teachers in that some room. It was so silly and pissed us all. Anyway, that night all nine of us crammed up in one room gossiping till 2 am and slept there UNCOMFORTABLY.

Oh, I forgot to mention. When we were leaving Cowboy Town, SueVern and Sammie wanted to take a photograph with a cute lil’ pony. So, Sammie was asked to stand closer to the pony. That little rascal bummed Sammie away leaving all of us who witnessed it laughing out really loud!!! Sorry, Sammie xD

The next day:
We went to Melaka town and visited the historical centre and museums. Can't really remember much from here cause nothing much really happened and most of the stuff we saw are similar to our Sejarah textbook. After that, began the long trip to Kukup. Where I sat in the bus has the most annoying mysterious wind by Sammie. I swear, I didn't have enough sleep. It was really crazy in the bus. It was so noisy and the bumpy ride really gave me a real headache. But the things we did in the bus was really entertaining! When we reached Kukup, we ate seafood dinner. Before the trip, i heard that the seafood there is really good. But when I tried, it really wasn't that great. But it was quite fresh. So, we stayed that a huge area of floating chalet. There were so many facilities like a ping pong table, 3 sets of mahjong and karaoke, all in one common area. Again, i learned something new. Now i know how to play ping pong (basically)!!! It's a really good sport for indoor exercise. I have to say, we spend more energy picking up the tiny little ball though xD! We played quite a number of games that night, cards mostly. I didn't play Mahjong cause' wasnt really interested at that time. We played a game with our art teacher, Puan Kwang, the one who kicked us out of the class because we forgot to bring the items. She looks like a regular teenager i tell ya! I almost mistaken her as a schoolmate when i saw her walking in a group of friends! Sammie and I went fishing too. We were acting like dumb blondes fleeing away everytime someone tries to cast their rod. We have phobia of hooks xD. That night we planned to prank some friends early in the morning by putting toothpaste on their faces and painting their fingernails with nail polish. It didn't turn out cause our "beloved" Pn Teh (an LOA old woman who loves young boys) was awake with some boys. Plus, we were all sleepy too. *sigh* would be really fun if it worked out. Ohh well!

The last day:
The first person i saw in the morning was Tania, but she's not sleeping in the same room. I thought something went wrong! But actually we overslept and she, being "sweet", woke me up. Then we were supposed take a trip to the Mangrove Forest and another Fishing Village. But a group of us were tired and didn't have the mood for jungle hiking. So, we stayed back and I learned how to play Mahjong!!! It's really addictive!! For so many years, I've watched my family members playing during Chinese New Year, while I'm yawing all the way till' 4am. Now, I don't have to feel bored anymore, cause I can play!!! Even playing mahjong was hilarious. SueVern and Xuan was playing at first, then i watched and slowly learned. Then Shengli joined with Jerrard, her lucky charm. At that point I could see how desperate SueVern was trying to win when Shengli kept on winning. After that i took Xuan's place, the luck she left behind, and won three times in a row (beginner's luck!!!). SueVern became more and more desperate!! Of course eventually, she won quite a number of times. Was so addicted to the game and missed it all the way in the bus when we needed to leave. Lunch was annoying. There were flies everywhere. We had to fan them away every minute. And when we entered the bus we saw another fly inside. I think we transported it all the way from Kukup to KL. So, that's how disease spread!! During the journey, we watched a Singaporean movie titled "I Not Stupid 2". It was a silly movie but entertaining in a way. I teared during the ending of the movie because it was so touching. I regreted it cause darn HanLiang kept questioning about it in the bus!!

I'm really tired and sleepy right now. Even though I had a good night rest. My sleep for the past few days has gone haywire. Now, I have to unpack everything and handwash a lot of clothes that i didn't manage to do last night. I don't have anyone to help me clear up my stuff unlike SOME PEOPLE. I would love to specify that person but shall not. I think most of you would know whom I mean. Well, off to cleaning now!! Ciao~

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Wings On Test Drive

My wings are going on a test drive tomorrow. Will be hundreds of miles away from home for 3 days. This will be my first trip so far away from home. Usually it's school camp. Not challenging enough! So, Melaka/Kukup, HERE I COME!!! Two buses are leaving at 7.30 a.m tomorrow. 7.30!!! Which means i have to get up early!! Argh... Anyway, i think we'll practically trash the "condotel". I heard it's a disappointing place. So, i won't expect much. Now i'm kinda worried whether i would enjoy myself, for some reasons. Am already packed and feeling that i've overpacked! I can't even remember EXACTLY how many tops and shorts i've packed. Dad says the bag looks like as though i'll be away for the whole week. I WISH!!! Hip hip hoorays to the fact that i'll be miles away from my pesky bros! Finally some serenity, i hope. Another thing i hope wouldnt happen is getting a haunted room. The other day we were discussing it, then we planned to combine every religious beliefs if anything goes wrong. We have protestants, catholics and budhists. SueVern and I will bring the bible, Tania will bring some holy water, but i have no idea what Shengli plans to bring. Probably will ask our fellow muslim friends to come along with their Al Qurans. There are other crazy ideas we've come up with are really hilarious. Shall see what'll happen!!

Shengli recommended me to watch this animation series online called "Happy Tree Friends". When i first landed there, i was like "hey, so adorable!!" After watching it... good heavens!! It's so brutal, the audio and animation are really gruesome! But the characters are so adorable!!!




















Adorable ain't it?? But you will be severely disturbed after watching the gruesome episodes. Like me. Thanks, shengli...

Btw, I thought Saw III is supposed to be out by now?? I've been waiting so darn long, and it isn't out yet. Probaby it's banned. Darn...
Movies to watch this month :
1. John Tucker Must Die
2. Grudge 2
3. World Trade Center
4. Devil Wears Prada

Ciao

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A little something to ponder about.

The day before yesterday we had a "No Apologies" programme. Was so excited about it cause' it's sex talk! We seldom get that education here, so it's something to look forward to. It's all about abstinence and self-control from having pre-marital sex. The content was really good. BUT, the presentator was horrible!! There were three of them, two men and a girl. One of them named Timothy was okay but his english was unbearable! The other guy, Sam, was kinda good, he's a full time clown by the way. Then there was the girl, can't remember her name. Good heavens, she was horrible! She was the most obnoxious girl i have ever met! She's so lame and not to mention totally unprofesional! I sat there for hours feeling agitated and the urge to leave ASAP! But aside from that, the programme was meaningful. After it i felt kinda bad for what i've done. No, i did not have sex. Just something overboard that was stated in the work book i got. Anyway, i've learnt a lot. Before this i actually thought i wouldnt wait. But after all the clips i watched, the consequences i might face, it's kinda scary in a way. So, i pledge i shall wait!! xD

So, today we had a talk on which stream to take next year. Boy, was it stressful! I found out that the additional subjects which i'm interested to take requires an approval letter from a tutor. I was like "WTF?!!" I can't afford so many tuition, I planned to take three additional subjects by the way. Probably you might say, "Heck, don't take it then!". But i can't! I need accounts, i have a great passion for English Literature (we'll be reading Julius Caesar, Romeo&Juliet) and i need the "1119" in order to sign up for an oversea based scholarship next time. So i can't drop any. Now, it's a financial problem. I decided to take science stream, no choice cause i have no fixed idea on what i want to be when i grow up, seriously! So, to sum it all up, i have 13 subjects to take. On opinions of others, more than half of that total subjects requires proper tuition. SHIT! Not only i have to spend loads of money on books, but on blood-sucking tutors as well! I'm in deep shit i tell ya! Plus, i'm not an only child! I have two younger brothers. And to make things worse, next yr when my bro goes to KINDERGARDEN, it will cost around "eight gees" for two years. My gosh!!! That would take up all my tuition cost. And he's only 5 at that time! Blood-sucking man!!! And when i discuss this with my parents all they can say is "Don't bother. We've planned everything. Money is not the problem. Don't think about it. Yada yada yada." It's not easy to put it behind me and splash all that cash just like that. Unlike some people, i don't have the heart to do so. My lost, BOOHOO!! So, i'm in a huge dilemma right now. To take or not to take? The run (for my dreams) or not to run? And i thought the nightmare was over, seems like there're more to come. Argghh...

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Feathery Flight

*Drumrolls* I'm back!!! A huge huge huge relief! PMR is o-v-e-r. The heavy burden is lifted off my shoulders! Although the last paper was a total bummer, i'm still really really glad that it's all over. Plus, we get a break from school till wednesday! How good is that? Anyway, i went to MidValley yesterday with Melia, Jean, Tania and Davie. Was so excited, why? Beeeecaaaauseee the last time i went was two years ago!! =D I have to say, MidValley is so overated! After going there, i'd prefer OneUtama wayyy more. BUT i had fun! We were like the noisiest bunch there. People were giving us weird looks wherever we go. It's kinda embarassing if i think of it now, but we didnt realise it then.

Especially when we saw two white hunks on the opposite elevator. Davie was eyeing one of them and gave him a smile which totally made their nose expand!! Then we were chitty chatting about them in the food court and saw them again, as Davie wished. So, they spotted us and guess what they did? They sorta like "posed" on a nearby pillar, waiting for us to pass by as we finished our drink. But i have to say, we made a BIG deal out of it and it was so obvious! At first Davie and I was eyeing on the guy in white and he has a GI hairstyle. He looked really hawt from a distance, but when upclose... YUCK! Then we shifted to the other guy in black xD!

I had a great laugh! It was kinda tiring too. Ohh, i also had HaggenDass (is that how u spell it?) after so many years!!! It was havenly!!! Whereas the foodcourt there is underated, coz the lamb chop was excellent! It was really good, and worth it too! Hmm, what else? Oh, i saw a really nice black dress at Rest&Relax. Really liked it! But there's always a downside! It cost RM169!!! I was like WHOA!! And i'm probably gonna wear it once for my cousin's wedding and never wear it again. BUMMER i tell ya! Anyway, yesterday was so much fun. But there was something missing. Hunneh Yeen wasnt there. If she was, the mall would have crashed.

Headline : Pals Demolished Mall

Since PMR is over there are so many stuffs that i can do. But before all the fun, i have to clean my room. It looks like as though a hurricane just passed my room. I seriously dont know how i sleep and survived in it! Now i know how nasty i am. Nasty at the wrong cause. Argh... there are so many things to blog about. But i just lost the mood to do so. So exhausted!!! Well, i shall lazze off then. Ciao!

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A huge punch of thoughts

Hey. I've just watched Farenheit 9/11 by Michael Moore on HBO a couple of minutes ago. It's funny, you see. Nothing had struck my mind on why United States attacked Iraq about two years ago. I've always thought it was the terrorists who provoked the US and some sort of millitary nuclear weapon. After watching three quarter of the 2 hours documentary, many questions just popped into my mind, it's really thought-provoking! Why did the United States attack Iraq? Where were the suspected nuclear weapons? Was there a connection between Bush and the 9/11 incident about five years ago? Is Bush related to the Bin Laden line that's secretly covered up? Did Bush made the dicision to attack Iraq on personal matters? I know, i know. It's been two years, but it's only now that I've thought about it. Now i notice how ignorant i am towards world events. Thousands of soldiers and civilians died for no reason. The death toll is still piling up until today. One simple question - Why? Greed for oil? For power? Or worse - personal matters? Go watch Farenheit 9/11 on HBO, then you'll understand why i'm bringing up this outdated issue that probably was already solved. But i'm still quite clueless. I also just realized that millions of US citizens was dupped by their fellow president, George W. Bush. What a shame. Or probably i don't know the whole thing to comment on it.

Ohh well! Currently i'm trying really really hard to study Geography without dozing off. It's difficult i tell ya. With the temptation of TV and online. Which i gave in to both, obviously! Anyway, i'm just here for a while to post about the documentary i've just watched. I highly recommend it. For those who had no idea, like me, on what exactly happened two years ago which made a huge controversy around the world. I'm so ignorant. Shame on me...

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Slumber of Chaos

~Slumber of Chaos~

I'm sick and i'm tired. And all i want is to sleep peacefully for at least 4 hours a day. But i friggin' mind won't let me. I often doze off into pitts of chaos. My mind refuses to rest peacefully. I just woke up from a nap, which i really had to take coz' my head is starting to heat up. When i woke up, I find myself staring into blank space thinking about nuts (no, not balls). And by the time i snap out of it, 5 minutes has passed by. I think i have mild trauma from nightmares. Because i tend to think about it a lot, and it bothers me at times. I wouldnt say my nightmares revolves around silly things like ghosts, monsters or school incidents.... you know what i mean.

My nightmares often contains deaths, murders, lies and cons, conspiracy.... most of the time - end of the world and how it effects me. Actually it's not exactly the end of the word cause i have no idea how it's like, how do i explain it? Hmm, debris everywhere, dead bodies lying here and there, and i'm the only one left on the planet with a solitary company. There's something for me to do. Like a certain responsibility, which i find ridiculous (in the dream). Whenever i dream of death, sometimes it's someone i do not know, but somehow i feel like i have a connection with that person. And most of the time, i feel like it's trying to connect to me and tell me something. Plus, i have to do something related to it after that! Besides that, dreams of lies, cons and conspiracy keeps loading my mind, which i would wake up in anger and sometimes - hate. Loads of dreams that are trying to tell me something. It's too complicated for me to understand, but i know something is there. Even when i dream of comething CASUAL, it will turn complicating in the end, no matter what!

It really disturbs me mentally! It's so mind boggling! It's not really often, but it's frequent enough to make me so darn sleepy. Sometimes i feel so drained out mentally, all i wanna do is just faint - blank! Why do my nightmares or typical dreams have to turn out so complicated? There's always a twist at every angle. My head hurts so bad right now. Resulted from the dream i just woke up in about 20 minutes ago. That was one of the most disturbing dreams i've had. Not scary, but freaky. Even the word freaky wouldnt describe it fully.

~OK, FREEZE AND REWIND! I sound mentally unstable now. Which i don't think i am coz it only affects me some delusions a while after i wake up. Then of course feeling sleepy throughout the day due to unpeaceful nights, which i think is totally normal right? RIGHT?? Should i seek help? Or am i still a little woozy coz i just woke up not long ago? I'm feeling that i think too much. Arggh!!! It hurts.

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2 to 1 and I lost

Someone please safe me from 20,000 feet under "misery".
Got back a couple of papers today. News ain't so good! Although my morning's result was rather shocking, but contented, after that disaster by disaster came striking - non stop! Well, I finally got an A for Geography, for my mom, cause she keeps saying that I probably won't get straight A's because of Geography. Well, mom, I have good news for you, Geography is in good hands. Bad news is, you have two other subjects to worry about - BM and KH. I got a bright and shiny B for both.
I still find it hard to swallow, what more digest?! When I got back my BM's paper 1 I was a lil' disapointed but, i admit, was confident enough to at least get the border line of A - 75%. When i got the paper this morning, the marks i got was FAR from reaching that shiny A! Was so devastated, i tell ya! D-E-V-A-S-T-A-T-E-D!!! There was even no hope to beg for pitty marks from teacher. Soon, i found out that i lost marks because i DID NOT READ THE INSTRUCTIONS CAREFULLY!!! What a ridiculous way to lose marks. It made me explode(into shattered little pieces) and - cried. Bah! As for KH? Kinda knew i wouldnt do well. But was really really really hoping that luck will be on my side. Clearly it wasnt. Plus, they had to take the first set of paper, which i got B, instead of the second set, which i got A. SHITTY WEI!!!
So now, i have two B's! And i havent got back my Science paper yet. The teachers are using these results to determine which class to go to next year. I'll end upin the 5A/4A's class, i think (HOPE NOT!!). I am so freaking disapointed at myself. Can practically punch myself in the face!! But i'll leave that to my mom. Thank goodness she'll be home a little late today. Enough time for me to gather up all the strength i have. God knows what would happen. Help me!!!

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Haunted Haunts

~BLOOD SHED CONTINUES IN OCTOBER~

(not suitable for preggers, underage pesky kids and the weak hearted, only suitable for fans who managed to swallow hard during the previous movies. enjoy~)

Strange Foreign

LoL, second post in 2 hours. So, i was blogging just a few minutes ago. Then this guy with the nickname im,PIMPIN started bugging me. It was this guy whom i played pool with from Alaska. I don't know why on earth i gave him my email add the last time. He kept bugging me to have an audio convo with him, which i declined twice. Then he bugged me for a video convo. It was annoying because i was busy updating my blog, which i haven't been doing in a week! So i finally gave in with fingers crossed hoping that he wont flash me like how most guys i met online. Thankfully he didnt, plus his looks are not bad!






















He is one of the worse foreign guys i have ever chatted with. I dont know if he's shy, but i don't think he knows how to communicate. That's why i'm blogging about this. Unlike other guys, he just turns on the webcam and not chat, for no reason. Just staring at his comp waiting for me to type something. So i got fed up and continued blogging. Until.....











This freaky guy took over his place. Then i think they sorta argued over the comp because both of them just disappeared leaving only a chair on web cam with a freaked out girl halfway around the world from him!!!

Anyway, that's it. Currently i'm thinking why am i blogging about this? And about my furniture. *smack forehead* I must be really out of ideas besides cramping exams and trials. Too lazy to delete these posts too. Argh darn...

I HOPE THIS GUY DOES NOT FIND MY BLOG, HE WOULD THINK THAT I'M A NUT CASE!!! maybe i am...

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Relax For Today, Drain Out Tommorow

At last i can rest for today!!! Just did Geography trial about 4 hours ago. I'm feeling that i'm so gonna flunk that paper. It wasnt that difficult, but i didnt study enough. Same thing for science. Was quite easy, but i didnt study and memorize enough. Was so pissed, at myself. Could have done better. *sighs* Anyway, i shall update about what i did this week besides studying. So, my parents FINALLY decided to buy a new tv bench from IKEA. It took them months to choose a certain design and another 3 months to actually purchase it. Waiting for the price to drop they say. Cost about RM1,700. Quite expensive to us, but affordable. So we started fixing it up about a week after the purchase. It was tough i tell ya. I rather study, i know - weird. I got tonnes of splinters and bruises. The materials were so darn heavy! And it was a tough job getting it all fixed. Loads of mess too! Plus, i found a whole lot of junk!
















That's a bunch of little liquor bottles beside a Sweedish wooden doll on a tiny musical piano. I have no idea what's in between em'. I think it's a pair of porceline China shoes - weird i know.













My whole bunch of VCR cassettes. Did not have the heart to dump them. Each cost about RM29.90 each, about 5 years ago. I guess they're just priceless now. My childhood cartoons and movies are all there : Cinderella, Little Mermaid, Alladdin, Land B4 Time, Jumanji, Lion King, Tou Story, Sleeping Beauty... LOTS MORE!!! And they're mostly original. I can't imagine. I must have been a spoilt bratt. Didnt know that my parents were willing to spend so much money on cartoons for MEEE.... Aww, i feel loved! xD

So anyway, after two days of hard work. My daddy and i finally succeeded and now this is how it looks before and after.













Not a proper "before" picture though. This was 1/3 way through. Got the Tv bench set-up. And after...













After all the hard, hard work. I shall no longer insult Malaysia for not having a Home Depot (a store with many wood works and DIY furnitures) branch. I can live without it now. Don't know why i was excited about new furniture. LoL. Probably because i seldom buy new furnitures. So it was quite a big change in the living room. Haha, i'm an "average" person. Ohh, got a problem too.












The amplifier on the left hand side was a little too heavy. As you can see, the wood is a little curved down to the left and right hand side. So it's kinda arched at the Woofer's (is that how u spell it?) compartment. My dad dreaded about this for the whole day! I guess the felt a pinch in his heart........... and his pocket.

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Sparkled Tears

I was looking for this song for years! And i've found it. Was so delighted!!! It was the most beautiful song i've every heard-teared when i listened along the lyrics. I recommend you to download and have a listen. Imagine yourself as him or as his daughter.


Bob Carlisle - Butterfly Kisses Lyrics
There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes
and I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her hair;
"Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must have done something right
to deserve a huge very morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.
But I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you don't mind
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done something right
to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not sure-
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...

gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"
Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterflykisses
-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.
I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember every hug in the morning
and butterfly kisses....

Favour Misinterpreted

It's funny how people can misinterpret your good intensions and turn it totally upside down. Really silly actually. I had to suffer the consequences for helping someone out. Now i'm the one who turns out to be called "the fool". As ironic as it can get, it's not even worth giving a favour. I was (still am, actually) framed for something i tried to fix. To make it sound easier, the cost i had to pay for helping someone out was *whoa* discriminating. Let's just say currently i'm surrounded by girls whom i just wanna smack and yell "grow up"! Which also reminds me of a quote from a movie, JAWBREAKER, "This is highschool, what IS a friend anyway?" That quote strike straight on to everyone i know around me, including me. No matter how many years one relationship goes, just a single word of hate can turn the situation 360 degrees one way or another. Usually i'll get emotional when it revolves around friends (even though they're not the bestest friend), but now it's kinda like "don't give a shit" and kinda immune to it and all. Plus, exams are coming up and i wouldnt wanna create anything that would cost me more consequences. Shall just shove it aside and suck it all up... for now.

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Sniffes...

Forgot to post about this: Was really interested in Calvin Klein's new summer perfume. It's called Euphoria Blossom, and it smells heavenly! Price aint so heavenly though! It's RM 216 for 500ml, RM135 (around there) for the 300ml. Even the bottle looks great.




















Really wanted it! But too me it was way too expensive. I know, i know, they're all around that price. It's just that I'm not willing to spend so much on something that i can live without, even though it's my parents' money. If possible, i might ask my dad to buy it from KLIA which is duty free and he has a special 10% off. Even so, it still cost too much for me to handle *sighs* Well, off to study sejarah! Need to drill in order to kill... *lameness*

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No pinch, no satisfaction

Somehow whenever there's sale, there's depression. Funny-eh? Went to the mall today. Was so depressing I tell ya'! The problem is either "no size" or "no stock" or "puu, that's friggin hideous!". Walked for 6 hours and all i bought was a top and 2 brassiere. Everything seem so short-listed. So not satisfied with today's trip. I didnt spend much. Was suppose to splash as much as i can, but nothing... i emphasize... NOTHING was worth splashing on. Even the top aint close to being splashED. Was only 25 bucks. How ironic! My dad bought more clothes than i did. Everyone bought more clothes than i did. Sometimes i just hate it that i'm picky and fussy. I need a personal designer!!

It's not that i love expensive stuff. I dont mind purchasing a top at RM9.99 or less, as long as it's gorgeous and totally fits me, then i'm delighted! Oh, found out today that i CANT wear colared tops! Sucky aint it? I look so... Nerdy. And slightly boyish since my hair is short! Today was a total disaster! Usually, i buy a lot! Plus, it's sale sale sale! Everything is at least 20% off! But i must say, the selections are horribly pathetic. So i guess that's why it's called a SALE. It's obviously a give-and-take. Hate it. I couldnt find a proper strappy heels and casual sandals! To me, everything seem so... LA-LA.

I think i need some time off from ANTopModel, PRunway and Channel-V's fashion week. Or, just run butt-naked for all i care. Another note to self: Trial's closing in with SEJARAH PAPER the first to sit... Not to mention PMR in less than 48 days! I'm doomed...

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All Hell Break Lose

Hello peeps!

Arghh! It's less than a week to Setara Trials and i'm not even half ready for it. SHIT! All the pressure is compressing against my entire body, especially my friggin brain! It's just BM, English, Science and Maths paper. Thank God geography and history are NOT included. I might just blackout every 5 minutes for this whole week.

*screams* I need Maths tuition!! After so many years, i'm actually admitting it. It's so depressing. I used to be really good in Maths compared to other subjects. And now, i'm not good in any!! To top it all up, my Maths teacher rushes through every chapter just to spare 30 minutes to talk to her INTERACT MEMBERS. Does that sound like a teacher to you? She actually shoved me off (politely of course) when i asked her a Maths question, so she could talk to her Emcee for a particular installation. She promised to solve it and let me know the next day, but didnt. WTF?! I was pissed to the extend that i went to another Maths teacher for help. And she was great. I'm trying to stay calm everytime she enters the class and talks about INTERACT because she's quite a sensitive sober!

I'm feeling so darn lazy. My schedule is so messed up! It's quite impossible for me to leap from the TV to a book. It's sorta like my ass stuck onto the couch. If that doesnt happen. I just over-nap. Like snoozing the alarm from 30 minutes to 1 hour 30 minutes. xD It's not that i'm really confident to score straight A's, cause i'm sure if i keep going on like this i WILL just flunk in every paper! It's just the fact that PMR is less than 2 months away hasnt really sipped into my mind YET. I'm still thinking that i have years to go, until of course two weeks before the actual exam i would start hyper-ventilating and panic, and then... throw up every hour. Please send someone out of nowhere to hit some sense into my friggin mind! Please! I need help.

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Sway with me!!

When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more

So, I went for PCD concert on Wednesday with Tania, Carmelia, Davina (with 3 other friends) and Ujean. There weren't as many people as I expected though. The concert was a BOMB!!! It was effing awesome!! Loved it. I got a RM100 ticket, but i stood at the RM70 site. I know, silly me. BUT, the RM100 site wasn’t worth it! It was stuffy, crammed and smelled like fermented alcohol. Plus, I'm short, so it's impossible for me to see clearly. Whereas at the RM70 site, there's a huge space for you to dance all you want. The only thing i missed was PCD posters. The host gave away some by throwing them into the crowd. Anyway, it started off with Reshmonu. He looks like a predator from ALIEN VS PREDATOR. His hair I mean xD. Anyway, although I don't fancy him that much, the music was awesome! I started moving and dancing the moment he sang Like this and Hey Wale Wale. Was a good starter. BUT it lasted too long, till I got frustrated.

Then PCD came out, Nicole started humming the intro of Buttons and the crowd went wild! Our booteh started shaking up and down, back and forth. None stop! We went totally wild! Started dancing and singing! We danced like crazy. Except for Tania, Melia and Jean. They weren't shaking that much, but they did enjoy! I danced like a blardy lunatic. And now my whole body is sore. I screamed so much that night. And i have four blisters on both of my feet. Results from walking on sand with heels. I know, silly, but i'm short! So, i need help to see clearly xD! Since that night, i noticed that i didnt mind dancing in public. I didn't even give a shit when i saw people staring when we danced, bumped our booteh together, and screamed like total lunatics. It was so great that we didnt even care about anyone else around us. Melia and i danced tango when they sang Sway. I NEED SOMEONE TO BRING ME OUT CLUBBING!

Nicole had a acapella solo. She sang Feeling Good. (It's a new dawn, It's a new day!!!) Her voice was awesome and uncomparable. It was beautiful. The way she drag her voice and pulled it all the way up so smoothly. Ahh... i almost melted! It all came to an end after 45 minutes. Was so dissapointed that it ended so fast! Then i gathered Tania, Carmelia etc to shout "WE WANT MORE" for an encore. Ended up, they shouted 3 times only. Then i shouted alone like an idiot. Was kinda embarassed, but what the heck. I had a great time!

Today i found out why the crowd did not shout for an encore. Newspaper reporter said that she was dissapointed that the concert wasnt all that great. They way PCD presented it. In my opinion, the audience were the problem. They were not die-hard fans, u see. They only know the popular hits like Don't Cha, Buttons, Beep and Sway. While the rest of the songs, they're just clueless. So, yeah, i guess that's why.

Songs they sang :
1. Buttons
2. Wait a Minute
3. Beep
4. Fever (an "old school" performance, with the chair and sexy shiny corsets)
5. They did a "Break it down" (was so hott!)
6. I Don't Need a Man
7. Hot Stuff
8. Feeling Good
9. Sway
10. Don't Cha (people went totally wild, but it was a closing song)

ARGHH!!! I'm still crazy over PussyCatDolls!!! They were steaming hott!! I wont ever ever forget that once in a life time experience.

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